Trying To Pick Up My Life, More Bad News.

[Broken Dave]

We'll before I joined the Military my original plan was to become a Federal Air Marshall. The idea of travelling and laying my head in a new place every night seemed like a very exciting way to live. I joined the Military to get a 1-up on the competition.... Diagnosed PTSD killed that dream.

I've been trying to find a suitable job that I would enjoy for over a year now. The latest thing I came up with is OTR CDL driver. while, I am not a big fan of sharing such a small place with a stranger while training; I figured I would power through it. Then I started reading deeper into the medical physical; almost all of my medications are banned for use by commercial motor vehicle drivers.

So frustrated ;/

 

[Friday]

<grin> You've got the same travel bug I have.

Not all of these are PTSD, or medication, friendly. But I spent my first 15 years post discharge not knowing it was PTSD, so never ticked the mental health box. And they're all travel jobs. Or can be if that's where your passion is. To be clear, while I've worked maybe 2/3s of these jobs, some are just from being on the travel community / knowing what other people are working. And it's nowhere near a complete list.

- Air courier (armed or unarmed)
- Interstate courier (less work in both, now that electronic signatures are accepted, but art & organs, and other things where the value is intrinsic instead of insurance rate couriers)
- Underwater demo tech
- EMT / Paramedic (Dubai is paying through the nose right now)
- Journalism or Photojournalism (side effect of traveling so much has meant dabbling in both. Especially before Internet/mobile phones really took off. Still work available).
- Disaster Response
- NGOs (most positions imaginable)
- Travel Nursing (extreme to pedestrian)
- Travel Doctoring (extreme to pedestrian)
- Travel Nannies / Governesses/ Teachers
- Bush Pilot or crew
- Cruise ship crew / Small ship crew (mostly science vessels, some private tours or yacht)
- Freighter Crew (For both of these: I had a bad habit of flying somewhere interesting, spending all my money, and needing to work my passage back home. Not my kind of permanent gig, but useful, and occasionally interesting.)
- Study Abroad (it's possible to do half to most of your education in quarters or semesters away. I put this in work because Study fellowships & Grants etc. make this a paid thing Ideally both tuition, travel, & living expenses paid).
- Young, single, adult travel grants. Oddly, these exist. They're weird, and have strict rules (one I'm thinking of in particular requires you to not have travel companions).
- Music roadies & film crews
- Bankers (I'm still not entirely clear why I met so many traveling bankers, but math is not my forte)

 

[Broken Dave]

Thank you for those ideas. I'm going to be talking to my Doctors over the next couple of weeks to see about going off all of my medications; none of the medications have a positive effect on my life besdes Prasosin for nightmares.... which for some reason my new Psychiatrist cancelled.

 

[Friday]

It's frustrating as f*ck, starting over. There are simply times where I don't have enough energy to improvise, much less adapt & overcome. Those days, weeks, months? At least in my experience it's all about the same old standby: keep moving. Even if it's just waking and sleeping, that's moving forward in time. Baby steps. Until I'm in a headspace where I can regroup, and put some energy into moving in the direction I want to be. So damn frustrating, though. At least for myself, I know I'm getting out of the woods when I can turn that frustration into bound and determined, instead of beat up from the street up. Bound and determined I can improvise, adapt, and overcome. Beat up from the street up, just gotta keep breathing.