Day 3
Well, third day and doing just fine. Was sick for the first two days and nasty as hell and mean but seem to be pretty much over it (attitude). I guess my mind set was different this time though not sure how. I mean I did not plan and build up, I decided a couple days before doing it I would. Been pretty calm and serene today and physical withdrawals are supposed to be heaviest today. Not the case so pleased.
I have learned the craves go back up after slowing down and spike on day 7 and I have never made it beyond day 7. So at least I know this now so I can prep for day 7 to be like day 2. We are trying to make plans for day 8 to reward myself :)
I just feel like this time is working. I am just not worked up about it or feel like I am missing out on anything most of the day.
I am sure looking at plenty of photos of lungs and people dying, reading stories, watching educational videos and the like have helped too. Hubby says I seem to be exploring more info about nicotine and taking it more seriously. I think I always took it seriously, this time now I just do not feel like I am losing a friend (a smoke) like my past attempts.
Support group I have not joined yet as you have to be free of nicotine 72 hours for the one I decided to hook up with. Have been reading all the info there though I must say I am very confused how nicotine effects the adrenal glands and stimulates flight or fight reactions since when I smoked I felt calmer... Dopamine? Will figure it out.
Also, this group seems pretty serious, if you relapse you are banned.
All in all doing surprisingly well and have all the confidence in the world this is my time to start over letting my body heal. I am just not in the same frame of mind as all the times before. I have a few theories as to why.