I need a new job because I really hate what I do.
I'm great at what I do but never wanted to be a support person. I hate the long hours, the mandatory ON CALL and the mandatory learning for new tech. I hate the constant keeping up with RnD and the list goes on.
I'm a creative person. I take pictures and make stuff. I realized while I was filling out my self evaluation for the year that I've put so many safety nets in place so I don't have to work hard, think hard or report up to anyone. It's almost like I don't want to interact with anyone. On top of this I haven't driven into work in months, using my disabilities as an excuse.
My anxiety gets in the way. This week I want to drive in but my biggest excuse - I'm fat. I've put on over 20 pounds since I was last in the office. I'm fighting depression and I feel like everyone hates me.
I felt this way my entire school career too. so... nothing ventured nothing gained I always say. I'm going to go to work on Thursday. drive in. I figure if I voice it then it must be so.
I'm nervous and sick to my stomach but I know once I'm there I'll be ok.
My other huge anxiety is quitting and finding a job I do like. I have a great false sense of security here - thats what I call it - false sense of security because it could end any time.
ugh. :)
I'm great at what I do but never wanted to be a support person. I hate the long hours, the mandatory ON CALL and the mandatory learning for new tech. I hate the constant keeping up with RnD and the list goes on.
I'm a creative person. I take pictures and make stuff. I realized while I was filling out my self evaluation for the year that I've put so many safety nets in place so I don't have to work hard, think hard or report up to anyone. It's almost like I don't want to interact with anyone. On top of this I haven't driven into work in months, using my disabilities as an excuse.
My anxiety gets in the way. This week I want to drive in but my biggest excuse - I'm fat. I've put on over 20 pounds since I was last in the office. I'm fighting depression and I feel like everyone hates me.
I felt this way my entire school career too. so... nothing ventured nothing gained I always say. I'm going to go to work on Thursday. drive in. I figure if I voice it then it must be so.
I'm nervous and sick to my stomach but I know once I'm there I'll be ok.
My other huge anxiety is quitting and finding a job I do like. I have a great false sense of security here - thats what I call it - false sense of security because it could end any time.
ugh. :)
