Thankyou desiderata310 and Findingmyself88 for those explanations, it's encouraging to know that if others can do the therapy and go back to life ok, that I might be able to as well. We have really crappy Medicare budget in Australia for anything psychological. You get 10 subsidised sessions (per calendar year) with the psychologist of your choice then goodbye.. you're on your own, unless you want psychiatry which is take a ticket and get in an extremely long line for the crumbs and pills. No thankyou to that for me. So I'm starting to realize that the frequency of therapy I need is going to cost me a lot. By the way desiderata310, your name reminded me of the Desiderata that I haven't read for years, it is such an inspiring piece of writing. I'm going to find it and put it in my face every day, like on the fridge I think!