I hope it is ok to revive an old thread. I have a lot to say, and thought about posting a new thread, but it feels appropriate to post here. I also won't rant on as much as I normally do to save everyone the hassle of too many words [too late - it seems quite large. Sorry!].
I waited 3 whole years on mine (actually, I waited 2 and a half on the waiting list, and over 3 years in total).
I am not doing well. I have an erratic schedule for appointments (times and place). I was suddenly told that I am more than half way through, and I have "at least two" sessions left. I have been told I am "not ready yet", and that (wait until you read this) "maybe you will be ready in 2 years, or 5 years, or 15 years". Also that "next time you won't have to wait so long for help, and I am sorry you had to wait so long in the first place". I was speechless and in tears. I love how the Psych has a crystal ball in predicting that I won't be shoved back into a system that ignores me calling each month to ask where I am on a waiting list.
I don't want to live with this for years. I felt ready. I don't know where I went wrong with the therapy. I thought I had between 10 and 20 sessions (this is what she said at session 1; now at session 5, I am more than half way through?).
I have looked into other therapists, some who have had experience of working with PTSD, but they cost £70 an hour. As if the bank would give me a loan for therapy, do you know what I mean? Silly, silly life. I feel like going to the Trauma Centre in Edinburgh and refusing to leave until someone listens. Which is even more silly than asking the bank for a loan. I bet their waiting list is just as bad, considering they took me off it and gave me to this Psych, who clearly has no clue how I am feeling. I will be telling her what that sessions accomplished, which was: nothing.
I now have a Psychologist who is currently off work for who knows how long until my next appointment. I know I need to look after myself, and see how the last two or however many sessions go. I guess I was just looking for a place to write it down so I could get my brain to stop thinking about it.
If other posters wish to share how their NHS therapy went, or where they are at now, or what they did, this would be greatly appreciated. I feel lost, once again, completely lost. Thank you for reading UK people, I don't feel as bad knowing you're out there.