Unable To Cope With Anxiety Than Before...

[rich_93]

Ok, so recently I've been dealing with very anxious thoughts as in like someone taking my money which I'm saving up for Christmas.

Right now we have an over load in our house hold with no privacy whats so ever! I liked it better without my dad, step mom, and step brother. My understanding of it is all because of my abuse I went through about 3 years ago. I have been having heart racing moments going on constantly feeling numb and just miserable.

Also feeling like I'm worth nothing, I'm on two different types of medications one for my anxiety which is lexapro, the other is for depression, and anger. Without it I'd probably go insane because I've noticed that every time I miss a dose at least 3 hours after I'm supposed to take it I start hitting myself or wanna do physical harm to myself like cut my wrist or punch a wall which I already have done and I really regret it! A few days ago my dad told me that I was schitzo. That really upset me to the max because all I do is work practically everyday that's pretty much because I'm always happy when I'm working. Then when I come home its back to madness and feeling like nothing at all.

I'm really thinking about moving out and being on my own so I don't have to be in this house. Everything I do I get questioned for and that's not how I want to live! If this keeps up that's what I'll probably do anyway! I just hope someone can understand my point of view on this and any advise will be very appreciated!

 

[Lady of Longbourn]

Hello Rich_93,

I corrected your post but you will find that if you start with a easy to read post you will get more replies becasue people can read it more easily. Therefore more responses for you and your troubles.

My first concern for you is wondering if you have a support system. I know you are on medication but can you talk with your doctor? Or a therapist you trust?

2nd: Are you honest with your doctor's about your moods?

I understand the frustration of working really hard for good mental health. It's not pointless, but it's also not easy. You really need a good foundation to start with, with a stable home. Have you talked with your family about this? Maybe with a therapist or a social worker?

Hang in there,

Ayesha

 

[Definitely..maybe]

Hi Rich!

I hope you're managing okay right now.

Would you be able to support yourself if you were to live alone?

I would definitely think through your options and weigh up the pros and cons, as making a rash decision could put more on your plate.

Sending positive thoughts your way!

 

[rich_93]

I'm as honest as I can be with my counselor, but sometimes I think that I don't tell her what I really wanted to. It kinda feels like I left something out.

I have a pretty stable job right now, so I guess I make enough at least for a hotel room.