Very emotional, anyone find this time of year hard?

[Rennie]

So we've had christmas and new years and in between the two I turned 32.
But come new years eve, celebrating with mt wonderful family including my siblings, mother and my 10 year old daughter. A truly lovely night but come the minute 2019 ticked over I crumbled into hysterical tears, at first I tried to hide it from my family, then I used a light disagreement in opinions as reason for mt emotional state and then I just crumbled and sobbed openly, my mother of course couldn't understand, although very loving, she just didn't understand that I didn't know why I was crying, all I knew is that I was overwhelmed with emotion.

Then today, 2nd of January, went shopping to my favourite shop (bunnings lol) with my daughter - had a nice time but when we got home, sitting on my bed I broke down again, I sobbed quietly until my daughter came in and cuddled me and I managed to pull myself together, for her anyway.

I don't know what's up and unfortunately my weekly psychologist is on holiday till the 7th.

Anyone else find this time of year hard?

 

[Freida]

yep! There are a lot of us around that struggle with the holidays. They can be just too much. too much company, too much chaos, too much running here and there, too much noise. Add in some ptsd and WHEW! crisis! :)

Do you have any anniversaries around this time? those can be a huge trigger when combined with all the other stuff going on.

 

[Rennie]

Yeah ur right, I hadn't even thought of that! This tI'm 10 years ago mt daughter was conceived under great violence. It's amazing I hant thought of that!

 

[Sanctuary]

The body remembers what the mind chooses to forget.
Let the tears come out, its letting go of grief.
Don't fight it, let it come and after crying comes healing.
This too shall pass.

Just hang in their and the future days will be brighter.
Wishing you relief and comfort

 

[Rennie]

The body remembers what the mind chooses to forget.
Let the tears come out, its letting go of grief.
Don't fight it, let it come and after crying comes healing.
This too shall pass.

Just hang in their and the future days will be brighter.
Wishing you relief and comfort

Thankyou very much I hope for the very same.

 

[Freida]

Yeah ur right, I hadn't even thought of that!

Yep..that's how it works. There's a book called The Body Keeps The Score that has been my go to. It explains a lot of this stuff really well.

This is a good intro...
Gift From Within - Article: "Anniversary Reactions: A Survivor's Guide on How to Cope"
And the site has a ton of stuff about all things ptsd. ....

 

[Rennie]

Thankyou everyone for ur reply. If anyone saw my post pls know I didn't mean for it sound like it did. I am oka.

 

[mamachick]

My daughter and I were just talking about the same thing today. The days have run together. There is a feeling of feeling out of it, not knowing what day it is, in a slump whether sad or agitated. Too much of everything that is stressful. (she has no ptsd) We know that where we live, the next 3 months will be without much sunshine, it will be cold and gloomy, and feel like a year. Even without having a traumatic anniversary, its a hard time for many people. My traumatic anniversary was Dec 16-10 yrs since an assault. This is the first year that I moved through it much better, without sleepless nights and severe anxiety. I hope January brings you more peace.

 

[Sanctuary]

Rennie and Brat 17. You both completely get the feeling but just haven't connected the situation.
I didn't for years, until..

Until I finally got the answer from a wonderful therapist on U-tube. ( will try to find the name but an expert in PTSD)
As soon as the leaves started to fall from the trees in autumn my anxiety would go up every year.
My PTSD anniversary reaction would start 2 months in advance of December 8th and last well into January
No one could answer my question why..?

The therapist video said your brain and body haven't connected what's happening.
It's trying to protect you.

Your body remembers how things were during the trauma. How the dark nights were at that time so you start to worry and have anxiety.
There is a reason your feeling this way..when spring comes again your outlook changes.
It brings hope again.
I believe together we have the answers to heal each other.

 

[Sanctuary]

GIFT FROM WITHIN - PTSD -Resources of survivors and trauma work.
DR Ochberg's

Free on u-tube.
Hope it helps in a small way.

 

[Tinyflame]

I hadn't heard of him @Sanctuary ^^, but I just read he is a Harvard and John Hopkin's graduate who wrote the first book on treating ptsd.