Viewed Child Porn On Accident, Reported, Now I Am A Mess

[Lola Nocheprieta]

I'm sorry for what we've both been through. :(:mad::sorry: But we are still here, still fighting, still trying to figure out how to BE in the world. We are mighty.

Virtual :hug:s, LFS!

 

[Deleted member 541]

@lostforgottensoul You acknowledged that you knew it was coming. Ok, so you slipped up. Now you need to find a way to stop again. Don't let this start into something that gets away from you, and causes more shit than you can handle. I'm not trying to lecture, I'm not trying to make you feel like shit either. I just don't want to see you rolling down the "hill of shit" and ending up in the pile at the bottom.

:hug::hug: Come here and post 2000 times if you have to, but don't get caught up in the shit!!!!!

 

[lostforgottensoul]

Come here and post 2000 times if you have to, but don't get caught up in the shit!!!!!

Yeah, that's another reason I created the thread. Didn't want to keep getting high and start down that road again.

Thank you for reminding me where that leads. :hug:

 

[hodge]

Mega :hug:s @lostforgottensoul.

 

[Deleted member 541]

@lostforgottensoul Has a new day brouqght brighter thoughts and self soothing techniques? Those of us that are here, have a fighting will, and I know that you are in that camp also....

 

[Whitney]

i just want you to know that I don't think you're dirty. The most horrific things have happened to you, more horrific than most people can imagine. Yet you're here. I hate when people tell me I'm strong when I feel like I'm not. But you're the strongest person I can possibly imagine. We are all a mess. Even those that don't suffer from CPTSD. You're fighting every day to overcome what you've been through, even if you try to escape on occasion. You are amazing. You are not dirty. Hear this YOU are not dirty, the horrible useless disgusting FILTH that DID those things to you is DIRTY. I know it's impossible to believe. But one person in this world (me) at least one person knows you're amazing and not dirty.

 

[lostforgottensoul]

Has a new day brouqght brighter thoughts and self soothing techniques?

I am not spinning as fast though I am just sleeping a lot. So I'm not sure.

I haven't gotten high or cut so that's a good thing.

Thank you @Whitney! There is so much there and so much I argue with that I thought it would be best to just say thank you and let it sit and read it over a bit later.

 

[Gs172003]

Me too!



I've done that. I mean you can't just google search it, it's illegal. But I know...

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I am not spinning as fast though I am just sleeping a lot. So I'm not sure.

I haven't gotte...

Yay for not getting high or cutting. That's great!

 

[The Albatross]

I think that it might be worth consideration to put a block on your computer. It's not unheard of, but considering you were high and stuff.... well then. Not saying you did the wrong thing about a report, you did not, however the disinhibited viewing of content.... well, not in your own best interests. Not really.

 

[Deleted member 12723]

I also think that a block to the sites will prevent relapse for you. Food for thought.

 

[Missycat]

@lostforgottensoul , i really dont know what to say apart from that you are not dirty, you are a good person, you are so brave to share your story.
Please read the responses to your thread again and realise how much we all care and that you are important. I cant add any more words of wisdom to the responses you have had but i wish you well and send healing warming hugs .. if accepted. :hug:s

 

[The Albatross]

On this thread, your diary or elsewhere, I also think it would be good to start a discussion/topic about your relapse.