Vigilent Self Healing: Wanting Self Actualization Inspite Of Ptsd

[Copper Stope]

Reading an entire thread about people's courageous journeys through life on the otherside of fulfillment was an emotional experience. Living in the same physical space yet imprisoned by a force, an intruder. PTSD to me is like being taken hostage. It is real-a real convoluted distortion of the truth. PTSD is a lie, it is something miss firing that holds us captive. So be it. I know it's wrong; the deep dark murky stormy waters. Powerful lies? Do lies have power afterall lies are not real.

 

[Muzikluvr]

I may not be understanding where you're coming from, and if not, I'm sorry for taking this off your intended course. Also, what I have to say may trigger you and if you're not in a good place for that, then skip it until you are or forever.

Lies absolutely have power. People see the world through a veil of their belief structure. When lies are inserted into those beliefs, incorporated into their perspective, then people's interpretation of actions, words, situations... everything is distorted by those lies. When people find out about the lies, then they can re-evaluate, or reinterpret what really happened and see more clearly those who were lying.

When I walk past a man, I know from sizing him up that he's not going to hurt me, but I sometimes flinch anyway... that is a lie in my core beliefs, that all men are dangerous, that I am an easy target, and I can't help responding to those lies.

 

[Copper Stope]

Muzikluvr, thank you for your comment;it's on point. Lies are powerful because PTSD. People say things, educated people who have invested time in studying bodies of truth. For exa mple believers of God proclaim He is the truth and the light. And that lies are trickery and deception. It's a long painful journey to arrive at one's true potential. Others who have studied psychology state one reaches self actualization by being in the present. But if one's thoughts need constant monitoring to reach the present then it's a labor of love-exhausting. Then there's nutrition. It's making sense to me. I stumbled across its link to PTSD by accident. By trying to identify why my nails won't grow, they're short. Magnesium deficency is a possible culprit, but the interesting thing I learned is that a magnesium deficiency can cause PTSD. Many other nutrient deficiencies are also lonked to PTSD. So I embarked on a nutritional campaign. I'm not ruminating as much, yet I am feeling impatient. I want to get going strong and to never look back. I very happy to have stumbled upon this forum. I love the courage and passion others write about. They love and endure pain for the sake of love. They're my heroes. They give me hope and I feel grounded.

 

[The Albatross]

Welcome Deb I actually like the phrase, vigilent self healing... I too want to get strong and not look back. Interesting about your description of PTSD as the lie... I sort of have embraced that a bit myself... that my ability to perceive and accurately assess real situations is a few clicks off top dead center... and the cascade effect and chaos that fall down like rain over me are a direct result of either "believing the lie" or not being able to discern the truth and make good choices because something misfires in my brain and it is hard to learn how to manage it.

But learn we will... as best as we are able. Glad you're here.

 

[Lionheart]

Hi Deb,

Welcome to the forum!!! :)
I like what you said about PTSD being a lie. We react as if the trauma is still ongoing, long after it is over. I don't trust people much, but here I feel it is okay to share and to be myself. I hope you will find it is the same for you too!

LH

 

[Copper Stope]

It'snice hearing from you all. Being new to the forum, I'm still feeling giddy about being able to discuss PTSD. What's also nice is that there are people functioning at a high level inspite of "it". Trying to get my career back on track. Ptsd builds character. It's a deception. I believe people are powerful even we may feel robbed. We're all connected. "Don't ask for whom the bell tolls, it tolls for thee."