Yeah, I hear you. The distribution of qualified therapists across the world is entirely inadequate.
If you have a good relationship with your current T, that’s worth a lot. But keep an eye out for specialised trauma therapists, even by telehealth options. They aren’t a golden bullet, but my own experience was that I went from struggling to stay stable to actually starting to heal once I shifted to a trauma specialist.
I’d possibly consider revisiting EMDR.
Attempting EMDR while still unstable, or not having a good ability to ground, is potentially not a good idea. But you aren’t in the same place you were in 30 years ago. If you’re currently working on strategies to be able to find a space of internal safety, that’s will put you in a really solid position to revisit EMDR.
It’s always a bit of a gamble. Because bad therapy will make you worse. But it’s also true that with effective trauma therapy, things tend to get worse before they get better. That’s why being stable, being able to ground, having solid self care strategies in place, are essential starting points for trauma work.
I reckon give yourself the benefit of the doubt, though. You aren’t in the same place you were in 30 years ago. You now have an additional 30 years of self care strategies up your sleeve to draw on. And re-engaging with EMDR doesn’t mean you have to give up the work you’re doing with your current T. For the issue you described in your OP, EMDR would be my first suggestion for resolving that stuck place you’re currently in with the intrusive memories you’re experiencing.
Something to have a think about:)
@Sideways. I appreciate it very much. I think somedays I am stable enough but other not. I have okay days, then really bad days and yesterday I was in bed, so maybe EMDR will have to wait. I increased my meds and added a new one. I know I need to be patient, but being on the rollercoaster of a bad episode is not easy. I am a very strong person but these episodes are beyond my normal coping range. Thank you for your experience and thoughtful help 
