Well I Made It To The Doctors...

[Wyakin]

I didn't manage to speak at first instead I just handed over my notes of how I have been and my managers letter with list of symptoms I have been displaying. The doctor read it and then asked me questions, she was brilliant in that she seemed to realise when she pushed to hard and she backed off. By the end of the appointment I was actually able to speak and explain a few things although very poorly.

She has started me on citalopram and has given me a doctors note which states I am suffering from an acute stress response with elements of post traumatic stress. I have been referred to the mental health team although because I am not suicidal or self harming I do not know how long the referral will take.

My fit note says that I can do amended hours and amended duties. Basically she wants me to work if I can handle it but go home when I can't. I don't really want to end up staying home all the time because I am worried that once I am at home I will never come out. Work does stress me out but there are things I can do that I can handle. I don't know what work will say about it all as it's a lot to ask I just hope they see it from my point of view.

First step along the road.

 

[Deleted member 20280]

@Wyakin this sounds like a definite positive, I read you last post in conjunction with this one.

Firstly you seem to have a totally understanding boss and HR team. They seem to be very supportive and on your side.

Having a Doctors Fit Note will also go in your favour as your employer will be duty bound to make reasonable adjustments to your working environment.

Well done you for standing up for yourself :hug:s

Laurie

 

[ptsdsolution]

Well done-work will look after work-you take good care of yourself-you are already a good employee or they would give you a hard time.

 

[Wyakin]

@laurie71 Thank you :) I went in for a meeting to discuss the logistics of my fit note on Wednesday and my manager went away to discuss it with HR. I then went back in on Thursday, they have agreed to me coming back to work with a few ifs and buts mostly centred around me going home if I am struggling as they are worried about making me worse. My manager is very observant which might have something to do with spending her life observing nervous animals, she picks up on my early signs of distress and is proving a great help with finding and managing my triggers.

I have something even better though than being allowed to try to continue on, the charity I work for have offered to pay for private therapy if it means I get help quicker. They did not make me this way, all this happened at a job prior to this one but they are eager to help me on the road to recovery. I feel like such a valued member of the team. I really cannot get over how lucky I am.

Anyway I managed to work on Friday by doing jobs that allowed me to work alone. I can tolerate working with the others for short periods but I can manage my workload in such a way that I get frequent breaks. I think just knowing I can go home on full pay whenever I need to really helps.

@ptsdsolution Thank you, I am beginning to realise just what an amazing place I work for.