Well That Happened!!

[Allie21]

stp2012- Yes it was handled professionally and she was assuring and validating. I think that's one of the things I'm having a problem with. I was expecting her to question me and try to poke holes in my story. Thank-you!

GreyOwl- yea I feel that I trust my t a little bit more. Thank-you! I think I forget that this is a process and that not everything has to be talked about or be fixed in one session.

 

[Allie21]

Whyteferret- that's funny I never thought of myself having ptsd. Yea it is going to be a struggle going on Tuesday. I really want to cancel it and not go.

Justmehere- Thank- you! My next appt is this coming Tuesday so we will see how it goes!!

 

[RavenGirl]

Don't cancel, you can do it!! :tup:;):hug: If I can go and tell my T all the things I have over the last year, then I have HUGE faith that you can too. It does get easier as time goes by and you'll feel some of the burden lift. And that's what it's all about. We get to feel lighter in our minds and souls, you get to let the darkness out. :happy::angelic: Hang in there because you are worth it! ♡ Raven

 

[Deleted member 12723]

Each person here already said what I wanted to say so I think that it was good for you that everything worked out and I think what you are feeling right now is normal for having broken the silence and feeling fear etc is part of opening up.

I agree that you are very brave and a big part of you really wants to get help and find peace and closure as you deal with the grief and mourning at being treated so badly when you were a innocent child. You can do this, you have shown that you have it in you.

 

[NightSky]

Typically, the sessions I have been most afraid to walk into have turned out to be the ones I have experienced the most healing and the most connection with my therapist. I know how terrifying it is, and how it doesn't feel like bravery. But breaking things loose and letting someone you trust hold the pieces with you, will eventually result in more healing and freedom. When you keep at it, and keep experiencing validation and support, the fear becomes less. Let us know how it goes!

 

[Truthful_Whispers]

Sometimes, writing down feelings and painful memories can make things easier. The therapist can read what you have written, if you simply cannot bring yourself to talk openly about it, and also, some thoughts and past experiences are unspeakable horrible or painful, so written form is best. Most experienced therapist have heard it all before, and won't judge you.

 

[Allie21]

RavenGirl- Thank-you for the encouragement!!:):tup: Oh im sure what you have said to your t wasn't that bad. I'm going to go despite every instinct telling me to avoid and run! :brb::dead: I know it has to get better I just wish it didn't take so long to. :banghead:

gizmo- Yea I don't think I was prepared for opening up and feeling exposed. I knew we would eventually talk about thing but nothing too deep. I guess I thought I could brush them off and let it go. Oh man was I wrong! Thank-you for the encouragement!

NightSky- I think that is what scares me the most. I have always been the strong one emotionally, so letting someone else see me as weak or vulnerable freaks me out. Like you kind of said, the only way to heal is to show up and work through it. Thank- you for the advice and I will for sure!

 

[RavenGirl]

@Allie21, we all have our crosses to bear. I kept my demons hidden for over 30 years! They were horrible to me... and messed up my mind and life. :(:sorry:

The one thing I know is that we can't really compare one trauma to another as they are all HORRIFIC in their own way and each of us deals with things in our own way. So with that being said I'll never say someone's trauma is less than mine or wasn't that bad.

You'll get through this. It'll be terrifying, but you'll be ok in the end. Honest. :tup:Raven

 

[Allie21]

RavenGirl- I'm sorry if what I said came across as me devaluing or minimizing what you went through. That was not my intention or how I meant it at all. I was trying to make you feel better but went about it in the wrong way. Again thank-you for the support! :)

 

[RavenGirl]

No, I wasn't mad or offended. I was just stating that they are all horrific to each of us. No harm no foul. ;) :hug:

 

[NightSky]

How did it go today?

 

[RavenGirl]

I hope your session today was a good one. I especially hope that once you got there and started talking you felt at ease and things went smoothly for you. :hug: