What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

[Iam]

Totally stoked that we are picking our puppy up tomorrow!!!

Happy - I have been feeling happy and ok for days now. Not sure if it is that we upped the dosage on my med last week or if I have made major progress. Maybe both.

Productive - I have gotten major jobs done around the house this last week or so. It feels so good. I feel like I am gaining control of my life again and my home is starting to reflect that. :D

 

[shell]

Sad because after months of not sleeping and then finally sleeping after being put on meds for depression its 4am and I'm back here again.
Extremely happy that I have reconnected with my twin brother, as I have really missed him.
Very sad that he is going through a really hard time, and is in a darker place than me and anxious that if he needs to call me as he is suicidal that I won't know the right thing to say.
Conflicted about going to Melbourne, happy to see my brother, scared to see the rest of the family.
Frustrated because I don't feel like I'm getting any better

 

[Iam]

Hang in there Shell. I think that not feeling like I am getting better was and sometimes still is one of the hardest things for me. It took a very long time for me to start getting better. In fact, the first year in therapy things got substantially harder, my symptoms went to an all time high. Then I started having good days. Then it extended to a few good days in a row, then a week and once, even a good month before bottoming out again. Reality is, yeah it's still a rollercoaster, but now I have more good days than bad. Still when the depression hits it's hard and I feel like I haven't progressed at all. The good news is.... the down times aren't quite as deep and I pull out of them faster now.

So again, hang in there and keep doing the hard work of healing. It really is worth it ;o) Good luck with your visit home.

 

[KP the nut]

I need to go to bed, but then I may sleep and then I'll have bad dreams and then I'll wake up to face another long day and then...................

 

[caliaviator]

After today I feel devastated. I allowed myself to feel love, compassion, and kindness and it was discarded as if it were nothing. What I gave and what I've done meant nothing. So from now on I'm not going to give only to have it discarded, I won't be the one to initiate the phone calls first time every time, I'll only love those who truly love me, and I will never expose myself to people that haven't done the same. Boundaries have been set, heart has been hardened and entrenched, and it's back to surviving as opposed to living.

 

[ms spock]

Feeling snuffly.

 

[amethist]

Angry and now seeking repayment.

A so called friend borrowed some bike gear of my husbands almost 2 years ago. For what ever reason he is either not willing or able to return said items.

He has been asked on numerous occasions over the last year, I even went up to collect them yesterday, he did know I was going. But he had not left them where I suggested, so off I went to his shop to ask him where they were. I was calm and professional about it all, even allowing another chance for them to be returned. I did take my youngest daughter with me.

As they were not returned last night and no text to say he would not be dropping them off.

The gloves are now off.

He will now be given a bill for cost of replacing the items and pay it in full, or it be placed in the hands of the small claims court. His choice.

Amethist

 

[caliaviator]

Angry and now seeking repayment.

A so called friend borrowed some bike gear of my husbands almost 2 years ago. For what ever reason he is either not willing or able to return said items.

He will now be given a bill for cost of replacing the items and pay it in full, or it be placed in the hands of the small claims court. His choice.

Amethist

I hate it when people take advantage of people's good nature. I would of given him a month, but giving him 2 years is way beyond merciful. You tried being positive about the situation and it didn't work. Maybe he'll respond better with some negative stimuli. Sure you'll have him hate you, but it's better to be hated by the right people than loved by the wrong people.

I hope justice will be served.

 

[AngelaMarie]

I don't know if any of that makes sense and is of any help. Hang in there AM and (((HUGS)))

It makes complete sense. Thanks for your comment!!! I can not talk to her again. I think you are brave to still try and have a relationship with your mother!! I wish you the best of luck.:)

 

[gidge]

Scared about returning back to work tomorrow and worried that the pressure there will cause me to have another breakdown when im finally doing ok

 

[AngelaMarie]

gidge,
I wish you the best!! Take a deep breath and jump in. Try to take extra time to take care of yourself when you are not at work. Maybe that will help. Good luck!!:tup:

 

[KP the nut]

Scared about returning back to work tomorrow and worried that the pressure there will cause me to have another breakdown

(((gidge)))

Please take it slowly. I returned to work after a long absence and it is tough. I am returning v slowly, increasing hours each week. I am lucky in that me friends/work colleagues are v supportive.

I followed these steps:

• I carry lemon essential oil to sniff, it helps calm me and keeps me focused.
• I have a liittle moss agate turtle which I hold in one hand, this helps me stay grounded.
• If I start to feel overwhelmed, I go somewhere quiet and do some grounding and breathing.
• I try and be kind to myself and accept I can't immediately be at the pace I was before.
• Try and have a nap/rest when you get home - some down time to recover.

I'll be thinking of you.
KP