What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

[ninja]

@BlackbirdSinging :hug: Take excellent care. I know it isn't the same as having someone familiar and in person, but we are all here to listen, talk and give hugs.

 

[Tornadic Thoughts]

I felt emotionally constipated much of the day with some deep shit backing up, then took a ride to the farmers market, saw some familiar faces, got lots of hugs, shed a few tears on a kind and receptive shoulder not willing to accept "okay" as an answer when asked how I was doing, then spent the rest of the evening barefoot in the sun playing in the dirt, nurturing some plant babies, talking to the dragon fly that hovered close by, and mulching some veggies.

Ordered take-out for dinner and the delivery driver opened up to me, after I saw his arms and asked if he was okay, about having had a break down last week and shared that cutting is the only way he can feel relief. We shared some space and time talking about life. I'm always amazed how folks just open up at the strangest times and share their life story with me, but so glad they feel comfortable enough to do so. Everyone has a story and they all deserve to be heard.

Hugs to all the hearts that are hurting, and here's hoping you have an amazing and relaxing time on your trip, @ladee . A well deserved break, indeed.

 

[ladee]

Thanks @Tornadic Thoughts ! Facing some fears to get there, but I am looking forward to relaxing with my best friend..... lots of catching up to do.... supposed to rain a lot... oh darn !!! Guess I will have to take naps.....:sleep::sleep::sleep::sleep::sleep:

 

[Anrish]

Shocked about what happened in London. I'm with the victims, their relatives and my British colleagues in my mind. :(

 

[The Albatross]

wry, stoic, unsurprised, aloof

 

[Deleted member 12723]

Calmer, Normal, a little bit sadness and dislike is that even a feeling?

 

[BlackbirdSinging]

I feel a lot of emotions I still can't name. And after the attacks in London last night I'm feeling some emotions I can name. I feel angry that this is now a regular occurring thing. I feel sad for the victims and their families and their friends. And I feel proud of the people in England because, I know even in trying times the people won't be bullied. I'm proud of the strength and determination to carry on. I stand with you England.

The emotions I can't yet name come from the week I had. This week I got some major life changing information. It's not my health. My family and friends are ok. And even though I want to talk about it I'm not ready yet. My brain is trying very hard to process the information and the emotions.

I feel like I need someone to sit with me and just physically be there with me in my silence. And since I don't have a specific person to do that with me right here right now I have to be that person for myself. It's a little bit of a lonely feeling. But, in another way it's ok. It's ok because, I understand what I need kind of. And I know no one else can give it to me. Company would be nice though.

 

[I need to heal]

I feel ashamed again, I've known for a while now that people at work & my perpetrator were stalking me & meddling with me online. My perpetrator for a while now has 'pretended' to be a 'caring friend' under a fake profile. Stupid me confessed that I'd been having problems with bullying etc at work. M perp then onboarded my Mgr, his sister & others to mess with me. It has sent me spiraling backwards - everyone is a potential threat, I can barely leave the house - I'm in a constant state of panic & keep wanting to scream help.
So many people hurt me, I don't understand why - I don't know how to make it go away. I was doing well, but too many bad things happened & I just couldn't cope this time - I just want to check out. I'm nearly on the street now - I have money for 4 more weeks rent, I can't go back to my job the thought of that place now is hell, but I'm in no fit state to get another job. I'm too humiliated to ask for help ... & say what... I was abused, so many times - I don't know how to say no - I'm just not good at anything, I'm too tired to keep going. I've had so many people mess with me & rape my mind - cops, nurs s, psychs, educators, bullies, narcissists. Sometimes I just want to be 2 again & be scooped up & held.
Why do people have to be so cruel, I thought we were given life to build a heaven not a hell

 

[Crow]

Terrified my cats are going to die. In reality they're passing around something making them throw up and I'm doing everything right via texting with their vet, but the overwhelming feeling of imminent death is all around me.

 

[ninja]

I am feeling energized. I spent much of the last week low energy and cognitively foggy. I took an iron pill, and my mind became clearer and I have all this energy. Now I am worried I won't be able to sleep. I was concerned this might happen, but needed to have clear mind to study this evening. I'm going to go out on a walk to see if I can burn some of this energy off.

 

[intothelight]

"If I'm a good girl, they will love/like me." Not sure where these old feelings of fear, inadequacy, insecurity or poor self image are coming from, but they are emotionally overwhelming and crippling.

 

[Anrish]

Tired. A bit scared. ...unworthy.