Tired and thoroughly depressed. I feel incapable of doing anything without huge mountains of effort. Everything an uphill battle. A freeze type with her on button stuck in the off position as Pete Walker said. Everything takes so much out of me. Cause I'm constantly struggling against and trying to change my feelings or dissociating instead of allowing them to be. Just frustrated today. In bed. Tomorrow I continue the sturggle of trying to make my life something while I feel shitty from all the effort it takes. Yay:( Lol I'll likely feel better, sometimes just need a good ole whine.