Less then impressed with myself; Feeling shameful and unhappy.
I'm feeling like enough is enough.
I'm feeling fearful and anxious of most outside this home.
I'm feeling lonely, bored, distracted, dull and desperately addicted to cigg's.
Im feeling hurt and betrayed by a certain person who just had to make her serious devaluing contributions into the outcome and difficulty of things and life. I'm feeling like a victim. I trust some self-pity is happening at the moment here with me; I tried to avoid creating any opening to the possiblity of this, ever by chance, reoccurring and developing further thereafter, but it wasn't in the cards. In fact, it's improved thus far to be seemingly impossible.
In some real sense I feel like a whole part of me is now gagged and bound, and I'm hurt and angry that some people that I care about and whom I thought might have cared about me, walk on past as if not noticing.
I feel trapped and sentenced, and today I dream of once again really finding and maintaining hope again.
I feel slow, weary and self-rejecting due to struggling with loss and what feels like progressive brain damage.
