What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

[KP the nut]

I feel wrung out and numb.

 

[Tosh]

anger, shame, hopeless, lied to, injustice, unreal

 

[AngelaMarie]

I am feeling justified!
Some of you know about my techo neighbor that has drove me crazy. Well, as they have been moving they have left trash in the front and back yard. Even left some of their trash in front of my yard! Today we noticed that they had piled alot of their trash on the side of a shed in the bike path. We told them they would have to move it or would get fined! Also, found out they were in trouble for leaving the front, back yard, and inside of the house a mess. I have been terrorized by this man, and have watched them disrespect me and the other neighbors for months and months.

To put it clearly....Ain't Kharma a bitch???!!!! (Am I bad?);):)

 

[Tinyflame]

When we are confronted by such experiences that cause PTSD, we don't perceive the world and people the same way...The only ones I have an easier time to connect with are children.
You are not the stranger in this situation, it is the PTSD that is creating that ``stranger`` feeling in you.
.. It is sooooo difficult to explain this phenomena to be understood by those who have not lived through a trauma... it is so extensive that words cannot describe this.

Froggie, is this true? Why is this, or how do we know when we 'are' or it just 'seems we are'?

 

[caliaviator]

Just got back from the therapist, so I feel a mix between hurt, vulnerable, scared, angry, but in a sense I feel better in a weird got it out of my system kind of way... Talked about I still want vengeance for all the things that happened to me too. Not sure how I can put it in a single description.

 

[Froggie]

how do we know when we 'are' or it just 'seems we are'?

Really wish I could answer that question, I've taken the time to observe not only myself but others who have PTSD, it just seems to be an unconscious response when we're with people. Maybe with all the research Anthony has done, he'll be able to answer that one. We know that our close ones aren't the strangers, it is us who don't have the same relationship response. I just asked my kids to help me through this and not to expect that I will be as I used to be. We cannot battle with ourselves to be like we used to be as that would be denying our trauma, we just have to rebuild ourselves with what we are now and where we are now. (((Junebug))), I just hope that I didn't damper your day with my answer, maybe someone else will have a better more concret answer.

 

[Tinyflame]

No, thanks Froggie, (((Hugs))) to you, I don't really have 'close ones' any more and family that are left are not trustworthy or hold different views, well that inevitable rejection in so far as a lack of understanding (at best) makes the 'seeeming' more like an (actual) reality.
And in my case the 'trauma(s)' had started early so from an adolescent on this is 'me'. Though last 3 years hasn't even been 'that' me, if that makes sense.:confused:

Thanks anyway, always appreciate your posts.
(((Froggie)))

 

[caliaviator]

Early this morning was a bit wild. My ex and I got back together, and I got only 2 hours worth of sleep. So I'm tired, happy from the new relationship, and conflicted by my therapy session.

 

[cat]

I have a feeling of impending dome. I had a trigger at weekend & thought by now it would have settled down.

I'll keep on moving forward though. its a setback & I must take strength from it.

 

[Mercy]

I'm feeling isolation guilt from being out of touch with what my Forum friends have been going through. That makes me feel selfish for not coming here for so long. I feel frustrated that I cannot control my disassociating. I have a new diagnosis which some folks may have too, CRS or Can't Remember Sh+t.

As for the stranger within feeling, it just may be that even non - PTSD folks feel some of that too. For me DID gives me plenty of ways to be a stranger to myself.

 

[Mockingbird13]

I feel scared and scarred
I feel alone and empty
I feel tired but cannot sleep
I feel worthless

 

[Ron]

I felt stressed this evening but the walk calmed me down.