What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

[KP the nut]

((((Shell)))), ((((AngelaMarie)))), ((((Everyone, group hug)))).

Today I am apprehensive. I am driving a different car and it is hard work compared to my car. I know I'm going to be sore and aching by the end of the day (I've only taken H to work and I already ache), but I do have things which I must do, including a physiotherapist appt this afternoon.

I want to feel positive, I'm trying to be kind to myself but I just feel numb.

 

[Loloma]

Feeling a little shell shocked from the ex's visit yesterday. It sort of takes time to process what has been said and then to process it. I just don't understand why the information doesn't become clear until hours later, Why is that. Left feeling very fragile.

What a cruel man, no empathy, no nothing. Glad I got rid of him before I was totally destroyed.

 

[KP the nut]

((((Loloma)))), take it easy on yourself for the next few days. For a different reason, I was like that last week. It does take time to process and re-evaluate.

Sending you strength.

 

[Butter-Bee]

I feel like the Drs are ignoring me, I've been 3 times in the last week to say I know I'm not right and I just need some time off to sort my head out a little but they look at me as if I had just sworn at them. Ok so I'm not crying and telling them all my feelings but surly me just saying I know I don't feel myself is enough. I just want to rest for a while is that really that horrible to ask for some time of work to do so?

 

[amethist]

You need to open up to them Butter-Bee, they can't help if they dont know.

I know its hard, but it is sometimes the only way to go.

 

[Butter-Bee]

Amethist I know you are right but I can't help feeling why should I? These are my feelings and my secrets and I don't want them out in the open. I know it sounds childish but I just can't help it. I don't have a specific Dr it's just whoever is free so I'd end up tellin the whole practice eventually!!
Maybe I just need to smile and through gritted teeth just tell them exactly how I feel, do it quick like a plaster.

 

[Srain]

(((((((((((((Loloma))))))))))))My heart goes out to you, at least he is gone.
((((((((((((AngelaMarie))))))(((((((((hugs to those that need them)))))))))

I feel good that I pushed myself this past weekend with my husband and we had a good weekend :inlove:. No major meltdown or stressed out moments, sheesh, what a relief - it gets so tiresome! Taking today to get things ready for my long drive into the city to see the dr tomorrow, gyno doc, blech. I have some apprehensions, the noise is deafening in my head but new doctor new start. :tup: I have zero doubts pain is in my head at this point! Extremely helpful.

 

[amethist]

Maybe an easier way Butter-Bee, would be to write somethings down first, then hand it to the Doctor when you go in. Save you having to keep going over it all every time.

Not sure which part of the world you are in, but could you ask at the reception, if any of the Doctors has specialized in Mental health. You may be surprised.

 

[Tinyflame]

(((((Hugs for all))))), + TLC
xox

 

[Queen Boudica]

Wondering why I bother even trying when there is always someone to bring me down again.

Negative thinking styles. Hmmmmm. That is what I thought I had when I was married to an abusive controlling narcissistic, H and I accepted his abuse because I thought that is how it is and I believed his excuses and that he was looking after me and that I provoked him and I was to blame and I should just try and be perfect and then everything would be OK. That was negative thinking styles.

But apparantly I am still negative thinking even though I made a huge leap and kicked him out because I am angry with him and think he is a sociopath. Hmmm. Oh well there you go I am negative thinking, angry and doomed to failure for the rest of my life. But you know what? I don't accept that. I think I have been very positive.

But I now feel like :poop:

 

[Zef]

First full day back at work after doing some partial hospitalization. I don't want to be here. I want to be back at the program with 'my' people. Anxiety pushing through the meds. Fear and doubt and 'why am I making myself do this?' feelings. I love my family and want to support them, but what price do I have to pay?

 

[goingonhope]

I am like just so aggravated, frustrated, stressed and anxious with a continuing brain fog that is wreaking havoc through my entire life and has been now for a couple years.

Yes, I try and work around it; work with it; work through it; accept it; etc., but this is truly maddening.

Would like to scream with this frustration; would like to pull my hair out of my head; etc. ...And, yet out side of this, .....Today could otherwise be a good day.

Not outwardly expressing any frustration in behaviors, but certainly feeling it all within.

Damn this continues to hurt. :eek: