What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

[heatherc]

Hello. I'm an absolute newbie to forums. In fact, this is my very first posting, (is that the correct term?). Today, I'm feeling horribly confused and 'at odds' with the world. I've only just been diagnosed with PTSD, (2 weeks ago), although I had my suspicions. Now that I have a formal diagnosis - I don't know what comes next and I feel very alone. Thankfully, I came across this website in a book I'm reading = No Comfort Zone, Notes on Living with PTSD by Marla Handy PhD.

 

[heatherc]

Oops, I'm a newbie to forums. Guess I didn't do this right the first time around. I'll try again, here goes...

 

[heatherc]

Man, why is this showing up so many times?!! I didn't see my 1st posting, so I thought I'd made a mistake and now I see that the initial posting was there all along. Sorry about that.

 

[Red Feather]

Hugs All.

I am feeling really down again. I feel particularly worthless and want this identity crisis to end. I am foggy nonstop lately. I hate it that I can't function and be creative anymore. Every decision I made in my life seems just wrong. I can't relax at all.

 

[Ice_Fire]

(((Nadia)))

 

[CraftyCath]

Hello. I'm an absolute newbie to forums.

Welcome to the Forum heatherc.

I'm feeling OK emotionally today but a bit anxious about tackling the big walk I'm doing tomorrow.

I don't sleep the night before I have to go anywhere so I'm worried I won't have enough energy.

 

[Sammy]

Been feeling rotten for a while. Antisocial, cranky and isolationist. Nightmares have been horrid and I haven't had a decent night of sleep in longer than I care to remember.

 

[Traumagirl]

Welcome, heatherc.

 

[stormyweather]

Hi heatherc, I'm a newbie too. Nice to meet you.

I'm feeling very angry and rebellious today. I went a little too far with it, so now I'm also feeling sheepish. I don't like it when I'm impulsive. On the positive, I'm feeling grateful that I started treatment for my carpal tunnel syndrome today. Hopefully relief is on the way!

 

[Srain]

(((((((((((Lizio))))))))))))) I think Stormyweather it on the head with this statement-

Lizio, I feel your disturbance. My ex will occasionally do similar stuff to me. With him, I know it's a mind-f**k because he's been drinking again. But I still hate it. It's like he's a dog who has to keep peeing on the same post. It is indeed creepy.

I'm so proud of you for ditching the flowers!

((((((((((((Nadia))))))))))))((((((((((((((Sammy)))))))))))))))((((((((((((Deb))))))))))))))))(((((((((((Gizmo)))))))))))) ((((((((((((((((Lion))))))))))))))((((((((((((((Traumagirl)))))))))))))))))
((((((((((((Everyone else who is struggling at this time)))))))))

 

[Srain]

First off looking at my avatar I might be a bit blind but let me reassure you, at this time anyway, that is NOT a middle finger but rather a pointing to the Spirit of Power and Peace. (It may be different later ;)

Today I'm feeling a bit out of sorts. While I was walking I caught myself in the middle of scenes with my ex mentally and being all wound up again. This morning for my walk I loaded up on pepper spray and my stun gun despite having Big Girl with me and it being a bit later in the morning. I was considering the neck knife as well...this was hypervigilance not self protection.

I understand I am safe and that this is residual but it feels like crap. I hope it passes soon. :(

 

[intothelight]

(((Rain))) I hope the hypervigilance settles down for you. I hate periods like that where it doesn't feel safe to even be out in the world.Go

Trying to keep from being afraid of the day. Going to putz around and try to get a little housework done here and there. Thankful I had more sleep last night as it does make me feel better all around.