What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

[Britt.f7]

Don't want to be a bother

When I was beyond depressed and crying 24/7, I finally went to see my GP. He asked me why I waited so long. But, like you I didn't want to be a bother, and, seriously, I hoped I could fix it on my own.

Please don't wait too long to reach out. Crying everywhere I went was humiliating, not to mention very dark. There is nothing wrong with reaching out. I wish you would believe you are worth it. I wish we all believed we are worth it.

 

[Deleted member 12723]

I am feeling peaceful with no anxiety. I got up really early today. I went to the early church service with my friends. I am glad they take me. It is a good church that preaches grace and rest. I get alot out of it. I am not going to get involved, just go. It always makes me feel better.

I thought i would never enter a church again and I have overcome my fear. Mabe that makes me feel better too.

Hugs for all that are struggling today, and I hope you all feel better as soon as possible.

 

[KP the nut]

I've felt hungover, tired and this morning I was sick - yuck. I'm not used to partying until 3am.

It was a good day yesterday though. I attended a Christmas Fair with my H and the dogs. It was for the charity from where we got both dogs. It is run by a dear lady who rescues litters of unwanted puppies. Even the RSPCA had pups over to her to nurse back to health. The dogs had lots of treats and even went to see father Christmas.

Then last night was a Beach party. It was such fun. Not a crowded party but about 8 couples which included some beloved friends.

I'm proud of how I managed and enjoyed myself.

Today has been a day to rest as will be tomorrow.

 

[Britt.f7]

I thought i would never enter a church again and I have overcome my fear

I haven't been back to church since my grandma died a few years ago. Not because I blamed God, but because I blamed myself. I was with her when her demise started. She fell and broke her hip. She also had a heart attack, but they don't know if that's what caused her to fall or because she fell. Granted, I was in the back bedroom when it happened and couldn't have prevented anything. I still feel guilty.

 

[Deleted member 12723]

Britt I am so sorry that you feel guilty. It was not your fault and you did not have a choice in the matter.

I had a incident happen like that with my MIL. She had parkinsons and dementia. We were taking her to a casino and she was really happy and excited. But she was walking to fast. She refused to hang onto our arms, and she took a bad fall on her face. She had to go to the hospital in a ambulance and that was the beginning of the end of her. She had to go into a nursing home and died two years later.

You could not have done anything to help her. I hope the guilt will go away. There is nothing to forgive. You could not be in two places at once. These things just happen. It is not your fault and you are innocent. I hope you wil let yourself off the hook. Hugs.

 

[Britt.f7]

Thank you Gizmo. I feel time will heal me. :hug: My aunts and mom said at least I was there to help her otherwise she might not have been found for at least a day or so.

 

[Ayasha]

Scared because I had a nightmare last night that reminded me how close New Year's is, which I hate. I hate New Year's.

Rather than focus on the fear and allow it to escalate, I am allowing myself to feel loved because my parents did something very nice for me today. They don't understand what I'm going through with ptsd and sometimes because of that it makes me forget that they love me. Or that I'm worth being loved, but today that is not the case.

Enjoy the little things, right?

 

[goingonhope]

I'd been in a confused state as to what to do about something. It took more time then I'd hope, but I did figure something out and made a phone call regarding this. Perhaps to some people that may help. I am going to go busy myself at this crazy hr. simply to perhaps relax or shake some of this stress, naseau, fear and anxiety.

I feel extremely worried and physically badly stressed; Overloaded, dull and numb from how unmangeable so much is in many aspects of my life and that of blood relatives and still other's.

Overwhelmingly stressed, and feeling scared, anxious, exhausted and depleted.

 

[discarded]

Really lonely, over 3 months now that I split with my PTSD husband. We had been together nearly 28 years. I miss him.

 

[KatB]

((((((((((PH))))))))) You can't give what you don't have.

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Maybe it's because this time of year that I am REALLY, REALLY down in the dumps or because of all the things I've had to deal with, fight with, fight for, I feel that I JUST can't give anything of me anymore. I spoke recently with my sister; lasted for about an hr on the phone. I let her do most of the talking because I just really didnt have anything to say to her and my mind is just soooo clouded up and just out of context. I isolate myself so much and I've pushed people away before; I wonder, is this the reciprocal of what I am getting back b/c I have nobody in my life to really talk to or lean on to? Yet, her and I are two different people, have gone through similar experiences, yet I have broken down under all the pressure of repeated traumas. I told her I didnt want to hear anything more of the church or anything related to it because I know what I am doing for myself and have a broken-dysfunctional relationship with God. ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I really appreciate the support, familial and emotional, from this website. It's a damn rollerocoaster and the only truth I feel has come from websites like this and the Word of God.

 

[KatB]

Feelings: desolate, isolated, and angry with life. Emotional numbness.

 

[KatB]

Overwhelmingly stressed, and feeling scared, anxious, exhausted and depleted.

depleted is a very good word I agree with, 100%.