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What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

I am overwhelmed with gratitude today. Best holiday season I've had since 1964. Scary in a way. I hope the other shoe doesn't hit before I can enjoy it fully. I'm going to have a cupboard of food for the holidays til the new year. I'm going to get a ride to get some clothing (mine are now too big. since I haven't walked a lot since 2000 I had gained a lot of weight. Now that I'm walking again, it's all coming off) and glasses (when my wallet was stolen I lost my prescription for new glasses and couldn't afford to get another one. You know how it is when you live on disability. I've had so many worse problems in the past, I feel guilty to whine when daily things go wrong. I hope I'm not boasting. I don't want to make anyone feel bad.

safenow.
 
Trying not to panic about what I'm going to fill my time with. Such ordinary, daily things that everyone deals with on a daily basis, why does it fill me with such anxiety? Talking myself down, planning out my day. Glad that some parcels will be delivered so that I can fill some of my time with wrapping.

The cardiologist tells me the damage started 4-5 yrs ago, just about the time my ptsd started, makes you wonder doesnt it?

They say that stress will aggravate a condition you are predisposed to. So it isn't unlikely that the PTSD made your situation worse. I know, doesn't help. I'm sorry you are going through this. Which valve are they going to fix(only if you feel comfortable telling)?

I've had two valves that have gotten worse over the years. They might not get worse but they will never get better. Unfortunately, they don't fix the valves until they get severe and my aortic is only moderate to severe. You are definitely in the severe category. I've read numerous reports of people that felt like a "new' person after having the surgery. Hopefully that will happen to you.

Many wishes for a quick recovery!
 
I am feeling ok. I have some things I have to sort out on the phone and feel some anxiety about that. I am up to the challenge. I will feel alot better when I am home from getting my prescriptions. I have to do some things today. I have a full day ahead of me. Mabe I will get take out again.
 
He put a turniquet up high on my leg, then forgot it was there
Um, I hope you have been compensated for that. I'm a nurse and I know a lot of people feel they get crappy care when they are on medicare, but medicare has stricter rules for practitioners, so actually kind of results in better care. At least in the hospital. As a hospital nurse, I can assure you that I don't know or care what your insurance is, or even if you have any. You are my concern. They hire other people to care about that stuff.

I know it is harder to find a doc on the outside, but they will not treat you any differently than other insurance. Meaning if your insurance nixes it, they won't do it. Doctors really don't go into medicine to hurt people. I hopes this makes folks feel a little better.
 
Feeling dismay at remembering all the many people who have treated me as though I am just nothing and not worth treating like a human being because of their own f*cked up heads and issues. There's just so many of them, it's hard to believe I actually went through my twenties meeting one after the other like this, and even up until a few years ago.

It's calmed down now, but for about 15 years it seemed like I was going from one fry pan to the next fire, constantly? That's not normal. It can't be.:confused:
 
Tiiiiiired. Still not feeling any emotions, really, but that's a norm for this house.

I am so very tired though. I am taking care of my mother who just had her knee replaced so I didn't go to bed until 2:30am, then got up again at 6:30am to get her an icepack, checked the fire place and other things then finally got back to bed at 7:30am and felt like I'd just closed my eyes when her physical therapist came. I am so tired but it's already 11:30am so I am just staying up this time.

Oh! I thought of one: I think I'm excited about throwing a double-birthday party for one of my brothers and one of my sister-in-laws tomorrow. I get to see my nieces and nephews (I'm going to bake cookies for Santa with them ;)). Okay, yeah, under being tired, I'm excited.

:hug:

Ayasha
 
I hope I'm not boasting. I don't want to make anyone feel bad.

Not at all! I'm happy for you and I live on Disability too. I got invited to my pastor's home for Christmas midday meal, so I am very happy too. As a widow, it takes something special like that for me to be happy on a holiday! And I want to share that happiness, just as you are sharing yours.
 
Oh boy, oh boy, oh boy. I LOVE CHRISTMAS!!!

I feel happy, excited and bouncy. H and I have finished work and don't return until 2nd Jan - whoo hoo. My youngest daughter phoned, she will be home on Sunday. She was busy baking, shortbread, mince pies and fudge so I can cross more things off my shopping list. She has also bought War Horse to watch as the family movie this year.

I feel at peace and I'm loving being so happy - H does comment (tongue in cheek) that he is unsure which mood is better, very up or very down :inlove::laugh:.

You're all invited, as this mood is infectious :D.
 

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