What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

[safenow]

Um, I hope you have been compensated for that. ... You are my concern.

Thank you, monster. I was. That doctor is not allowed to practice medicine for a while either. I love my current doctor(s). I've been on hospice for four years now and soon won't need them. I am sure going to miss them when that day comes.

safenow

 

[Kim500]

Well, like a little rabbit sticking it's nose out of its warren to scent the air for danger, I woke up, scented the "emotional air" and numbed out immediately to be able to get through the day. I have things I need to do today, so I think this state will serve me well today so I can get everything done on auto-pilot. It's gonna be one of those days!!! I wish you all a better one than that!

 

[sweetgirl1975]

I am feeling nothing :( so numb inside. I miss my feelings. I have caught myself watching stories about tragedies just to feel something, it didn't work. It has been too long since I have felt anything, including sadness. I am an empty shell lately.

 

[sweetgirl1975]

Feeling dismay at remembering all the many people who have treated me as though I am just nothing and not worth treating like a human being because of their own f*cked up heads and issues. There's just so many of them, it's hard to believe I actually went through my twenties meeting one after the other like this, and even up until a few years ago.

It's calmed down now, but for about 15 years it seemed like I was going from one fry pan to the next fire, constantly? That's not normal. It can't be.:confused:

You are not alone in feeling that way. I would consider myself a punching bag for the last 15 or so years too. I have cut all of the poisonous people (who are not family) out of my life completely. Sometimes I get so bored and lonely I think about paying them a visit, I never do. Kicking the people out of my life who feed on my insecurities to make themselves feel better are not deserving of my thoughts or time. It is unfortunate that there are so many people who think that it is OK to NOT be kind to others. I remind myself of Bambi often, " If you don't have anything nice to say, don't say anything at all".. lol And of course the GOLDEN RULE.

All you can control is how you treat people and how you treat yourself, take pride in being kind. And be thankful that you have the intelligence to know what is right and wrong.

Being a kind and caring person, especially to myself is clarity in my life. I have the right to block out the negative as I owe nothing to anyone but me.

 

[cat]

I've read numerous reports of people that felt like a "new' person after having the surgery. Hopefully that will happen to you.

Thanks for your post Britt its very reassuring to hear that. Its my mitral valve thats damaged & leaking.

A suggestion about how to fill your days. When i was going through that I would make a list before going to bed so that I had something to look forward to. Some days it would only be to hang the washing out instead of dropping it in the tumble dryer, or to go out for coffee & cake. It doesn't have to be spectacular just enough to stop you waking up with that 'whats the point of being here' feeling.

 

[goingonhope]

I feel very angry and sick under today's stressors. I've been wired all morning from mostly rational fears and my head and body feel awful. :yuck:

 

[Deleted member 12723]

I am feeling better. I have so much to do today. I feel anxiety thinking about it. I will be ok.

 

[Britt.f7]

Its my mitral valve thats damaged & leaking.

Out of that and the aortic, the mitral is the better one to have operated on. They've come up with such less invasive surgeries for it. Of course it all depends on what needs to be done, but I've heard good things about that one. Mine is mild to moderate in it's insufficiency. Keep us updated. I, especially, will be interested in knowing how it all goes. Of course, don't feel obligated to share. I'd understand if you didn't want to.

Cat, I like your idea's for the day. I think you nailed it on the head with the "what's the point of being here?" feeling. It use to be worse than it is now so I just can't understand why it is not completely going away. I really wonder how "normal" people can just go about their day not feeling that.

 

[timid_flower]

I feel relieved knowing I don't have to work for the next 12days.

 

[Deleted member 6617]

It's Friday night...depression sets in. Don't want to go home to an empty house. Damn tears keep leaking out. Sad...

 

[AngelKeeperJ]

Dread. Just the few years I had been doing pretty well with the Holidays after my little angel died in November 1993.
Now, the Holidays will hurt again. My Dad is gone to his heavenly home, but I have a new granddaughter.

What a mix of emotions. I am happy he will suffer no more, but the hole in my heart? I hope it will be healed faster because I know how much he suffered without saying a word. I will try to be what he would want me to be.

 

[Bosco2153]

I feel:

petrified
nauseous
terrified
hesitant
remorseful