Too much everyday living stuff to deal with - work, money, family, back problems. So stressful that I can't take care of me or the PTSD. So I am going down hill. Although i think it's not so bad as last week. I managed to get up and go for my walking, listening to my meditation tape. Still feel really bad, but glad I want because on some level I know it is good for me.
I wish that I had support from people - you know the sort who can give me a real hug, so I don't feel so alone with all of this. I have started to so some social stuff, but still along way from having good friends that I can share all of this with......
Wishing my work, money and family stuff would get better - I am doing everything that I can, but am still going backwards with these things.
Q: Is this all real, or am I just stuck in a stupid hopeless / helpless zone.
A: It is real. I have PTSD. I am not coping. No one to turn to.