What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

[Tanishq]

I am feeling very emotional after sending unconditional love to confidante.

 

[Philippa]

Not really sure? Stuff is starting to surface and the shiatsu massage I had today will no doubt be bringing more stuff up, though hopefully not more than I can handle...

I feel a bit confused, a bit down, and like I need to cry but it's stuffed deep down. I'm warm and happy to have my head clearing up a bit after my three week binge smoking weed. It had to be done, but I know that it usually has the effect of keeping me down...which on some level I used to think is where I belonged, and that happiness was not something I deserved. I have been working on changing those beliefs though.

I feel content with the food I had for dinner, and am enjoying listening to the rain outside. It's still strange to not have the cat around, but I'm getting used to it I guess. Still sad though.

 

[therisa]

Numb, and not sure, why this is.

 

[Philippa]

I'm feeling lonely and sick of being a spinster, but I accept that the right person will show up when I have worked through my issues more and am in a place where I feel that I deserve to be loved and treated with respect and evidently that is not now. :D I'm feeling glad and grateful that I did not compromise my standards and sleep with the guys I was thinking of turning to when I needed comfort (still do). Using people that I am not even attracted to is just destructive to me, and it's not fair on them either (even if they don't mind at the time)

I'm feeling like screaming and crying, but I cannot leave the computer. I'm a bit scared to confront some of the things I have been distracting myself from, but I know there is nothing to be scared of.I'm feeling drained, and tired...ready for bed.

 

[therisa]

Frustrated, how some people can't grasp, what you are trying to share with them.

 

[Barberian]

Pain.

 

[goingonhope]

As this day passes I am increasingly feeling scared, frustrated, irritable, and angry. So fed up and disappointed with far too many obstacles to leap and overcome.

Yesterday morning something occurred terribly wrong, and I suddenly had so much terrible pain in my eye and head and couldn't open either eye to let any light in all day. And, the circumstances which surrounded and followed presented enormous challenge, feelings of helplessness and obstacles for which to overcome.

 

[Britt.f7]

I am feeling okay with myself. I would like to do more, I think I could do more, but I am hesitating like I usually do. I would call it being lazy. The therapist and my husband call it the depression.

Our money troubles are getting worse. I want to talk to my husband about trying to get a raise from his boss(his father), but it is very complicated. No one has had a raise there in years. I don't think my husband realizes I've gone off another medication that is too much for us to afford. It seemed to be working for me, but we just don't have the money. Therapist says don't give the medicine all the credit for how I'm doing. I'm doing well compared to this time last year. But she is concerned about my going off things safely and the upcoming months which tend to be difficult on people(winter)...definitely difficult on me.

 

[goingonhope]

Feeling mixed emotions now: disappointed, ecstatic, calm, glad, concerned, pleased.

The fear, frustration and anger has mostly passed and certainly is not dominating.

My irritability however, seems these days to follow me about and intrude when unexpected.

 

[CourageofSnow]

Had a bad night's sleep with lots of nightmares. Woke up feeling high anxiety and depression. I missed work today due to this. Feeling useless and wanting to take some more valium.

Processing a lot of things lately and not sure how I feel about certain things. My friends are all busy and I am trying not to take this personally.

Feeling worried that I won't be able to even work two days a week.. Am scared my husband will leave me and that I won't cope..

Tried taking the dog for a walk but was so scared I came straight home... Not feeling safe today.

 

[Philippa]

Feeling unsure, a bit disgusted, my eyeballs are sore from the screen, heartbroken, so confused, desperate to go to a grief counselor and just start sorting through stuff. The cat dying has opened up all my other losses and things that I am still grieving. Does grieving ever stop? I feel like I've been mourning stuff...like EVERYTHING, since I was 19, and I'm 39 now. Feeling unsure if that is normal...to be grieving so much? I guess it comes in waves, so I'm not actually grieving all the time, just in dribs and drabs, as much as I can handle. I miss my kitten. It still feels so strange to come home and realize that she isn't there, that she's gone...forever. The house feels empty without her initially. I miss her so much.

My heart feels expanded despite being broken. I am glad to be home. It was a long day at work, and had some pretty yuck, smelly, grotty customers that made me want to get drunk to wipe the memory of working with them. I'm glad I finally got to see Kim Salmon play at my local hangout place. Made some new friends, so I hope to see them both again. I made it through the day and laughed a lot, as well as played with the new woman at work. I'm really loving my job at the moment, though some customers make it unpleasant at times.

I feel like I need to journal so much, I have not been doing it regularly in ages, and feel a bit backed up with emotional stuff, and I seem to be feeling hollow and angst a lot lately. Feeling sleepy now...I'm going to bed. Goodnight all. :)

 

[Deleted member 12723]

I am feeling pretty good today. I have been staying at my daughters house and it is good to be spending so much time with my family. I decided to move in with them. It will be a slow process, I have so much stuff here at home to get rid of. I will have to have an estate sale to get rid of the bulk of the stuff.

I have been sleeping better and eating better over there. It is sad but I have to take my two cats to the shelter but I will keep my dog with me. I am so attached to her. I will miss the cats. They are so happy here. My daughter will help me today. I am so glad I do not have to take the cats by myself.

I am feeling so much better staying over at my daughters house. I come home to take a shower and change clothes and do the wash.