What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

[ms spock]

Feeling great anxiety.

 

[CraftyCath]

Sick of being sick and sick of my husbands family treating us like :poop:.

They have ignored us for years because I told my sister-in-law that her husband was picking on me and she lied to cover for him. He has now left her and gone off with a 27 year old (he's 51). Now they had decided to have a 'birthday buffet' for my husband and do not seem to understand that it is inappropriate to do this when they have just ignored him in the past and won't discuss what happened.

My husband rang his other sister suggesting a meeting and she has agreed to see him but wanted the other sister there. He said he would only see them separately at first. When he asked why they had ignored him so much she said it was because 'Cath doesn't get on with Clive.' So, again, I am the Black Sheep of the family and am, apparently, to blame for all that has happened. My husbands Dad rang me and I had to spend an hour on the phone trying to put our part across. All of them have said 'why can't we just put it behind us?' They don't seem to understand that it doesn't go away, it just festers and then, at the 'birthday buffet' they can all pretend to be loving and caring when in fact they are blaming us.

I just don't get! I thought it was my paranoia until she confirmed that she thought it was my fault! I'm so sick of it! I haven't stopped crying, I'm frightened and just want to hide away from everything.

If they don't sort it out, if they don't give some form of apology; even if it's understanding things from my perspective, then I will cut myself off from the completely.

I feel like I'm being bullied. :cry::cry::cry::cry:

 

[StarChild]

I woke up crying and shaking into a horrible black day. Every thing's to overwhelming, every noise, every little decision such as choose a jar for breakfast makes me cry again. Even my playing dogs were to much for me to handle and I fled back into my bed. Hiding under the feather bed sobbing and shaking. I feel so very despaired!

 

[DMerish]

Finally, got a decent night's sleep although it was interrupted by tummy troubles. Today, I'm feeling rested but not energetic, and oh so much to do . . . I'll plow through what I can, take a nice long bath tonight and go to bed early.

 

[Britt.f7]

I feel a little better today then I have in the last few days. Maybe it is because my husband took me out to get a soda and then on to the pharmacy. Plus the sun is shining. Oh, and let's not discount that I took a shower. Yippee. Though I will take a nap, I don't feel like I need to hibernate there all day. That's a positive.

 

[Changing4Best]

Relaxed and taken care of. My friend Lisa took me out after we went to church. We each had lunch at the Chinese, then she took me out for a ride all around the valley and we looked at the newly fallen snow on top of the mountains, people's houses, barns, farms and so on....

 

[ms spock]

Feeling very high anxiety but decided to get moving.

 

[Britt.f7]

Glad that I made it through the day without too much time spent back in bed. Less then an hour. Unfortunately the whole hour I was thinking of the football banquet I have to go to tomorrow. Not looking forward to that.

 

[ms spock]

Feeling a high level of anxiety.

 

[Philippa]

Feeling relieved to have made the money I need to make rent this week. The stress has greatly decreased compared to how high it was on friday. I'm in the clear again, so I can relax about that. I'm feeling quite warm and good, relaxed, and relieved.

 

[CraftyCath]

Overwhelmed.:cry:

 

[Britt.f7]

A little apprehensive as I have a football banquet to go to tonight. I've made it through one day of not crawling back into bed, other then a small nap, and I am hoping that this latest anxiety producing event doesn't trigger anything.