What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

[therisa]

@macca , I more than gladly give you, what limited positive energy, I have, today, to you.

Don't understand, why I am feeling very anxious, this morning, to the point, bordering on a very strong anxiety attack, but I am. I need to get out and complete my grocery shopping, for this week, for myself and R's cats. Can feel my self-anger and frustration mounting with passing minute that I feel trapped like this. Am on the verge of crying, and once this starts, it will be hours, before I can face anybody. Even the phone of picking of the phone and calling anyone, terrifies me.

 

[BlackbirdSinging]

I feel terrible. I guess I stayed pretty much confused yesterday and last night. I wound up misinterpreting something my close friend said. I felt funny about it and I decided I needed to speak up about it. That's when my friend explained what they meant. I had totally misunderstood them. I felt like a complete idiot. And I felt so guilty and full of shame that I ended up crying. I don't like crying. Now I feel like I've got my tail tucked between my legs. I'm so ashamed of myself. I feel like my friend is going to be all upset with me now. I'm nervous and anxious and worried.

 

[Hope4Now]

Almost completely unstable. Cycling among extremes of physical, emotional, and functional states. This is NOT fun. This is NOT acceptable. Terrified of losing control.

 

[franciemarnie]

Safe hugs to everyone having a rough time today.

Nausea. Woke sick to my stomach. It is an old familiar feeling and not related to GI or present conditions, but in response to trauma dream.

I know it will pass. Don't like shaky powerless feeling. Will walk. Contemplate ways to release if possible. Talking like comic book character in peril!

 

[ninja]

Lonely, distant and angry.

 

[roaminggnome]

Feeling better while hanging in there and dealing with everything.

 

[franciemarnie]

Nausea passed with walk plus grounding music plus think-thru of creative problem plus wrangling with the beds who fight me putting on new tight fitting sheets.

It's good for me to have something physical and safe with resistance to "fight" with and vanquish. Newly made beds have accepted reality now.

 

[Deleted member 12723]

I am feeling ok today. It is a quiet and peaceful day for me. I slept in and I do not usually do that.
We go to music lab classes for the girls tonight. I have had a pajama day and I will have to get dressed and do not feel like going but I need to get out of the house. I will treat us to dinner tonight. I am worried about the stress my daughter is going through right now over the divorce which is taking over a year. I am so sad for her.

 

[ms spock]

Feel like I am still here.

 

[Shan-Nav01]

So excited, today has been a day of much change - including 2 of our chicks hatching!! :D (I feel like a proud parent)
This year for lent I've decided to do daylight fasting, and even though it's only been one day I feel like I know it's going to change me by the end of it, for the better (which has been too long arriving in the spiritual world... But that's all quite complicated)

It's just felt a bit different to normal, and I can't put my finger on it, but it feels like a good different, so I shall be content at not over analysing it!

 

[ms spock]

Feeling massively anxious.

 

[Hope4Now]

@Ms Spock sorry to hear you are anxious. Keep revisiting, "your old friend, the breath" in the words of Sharon Salzburg, author of Real Happiness (and CD on mindfulness meditation). I thought I was going to lose it tonight while I was "meditating" (more like struggling to keep afloat in the chaos of my self/selves. I kept returning to her words, and it helped a lot.

After a day of feeling like I was floating away into random fragments, I'm feeling a little more centered now. Not sure how this is possible given where I was a few hours ago, but I'm grateful for the reprieve.

Also feeling a little spark of hope. The Huffington Post put up an article on "18 Things Creative People Do Differently," and one of the 18 had to do with new research in "post-traumatic growth" that shows recovering from trauma can transform the way one sees the world and lead to increased creativity.