What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

[ms spock]

Tired

 

[Hope4Now]

I feel like a 10 year old trying to do a grownup's job. Overwhelmed, in too deep, sinking fast, too proud, scared, avoidant to ask for help. Want to jump up and down and have a tantrum because I lost a handwritten piece for my book that will take me a full day to recreate. So incredibly angry with myself. Also lost a really expensive cord I need to run software I use. Losing a lot of things lately...I hate this.

 

[Tinyflame]

(((((LH)))))), (((((((((Ms Spock))))), (((((Hope4Now)))))), (((Gizmo)))) and all.

Hopeless.

 

[Hope4Now]

((((((((((((@Junebug))))))))))))
Be nice to yourself...just a little even. Have a cup of hot tea or cocoa, or go swing on a swing, or light a candle...just something that is simple and feels nice. We're here rooting for you!

 

[franciemarnie]

I am, as near usual, too pooped to pop. I feel emotionally balanced, not overly any one thing. Except tired.

I am paying for going full speed for three months. Baby burn-out. It will take as long as it takes to recover.

Plus I have tired adrenals, etc. from decades of fight or flight. Ironically my pain killer addiction in my 40's might have helped out a little. They sure shut everything down, but at what cost? Glad to be rid of them now 13 years. The narcotics, not the adrenals. Ha!

 

[Spiderallis]

Hugs to everyone who'd like or needs one- take a few, I've got plenty.

Had trouble sleeping, a late start and I'm slow to get moving today. I'll trudge though, it'll feel better than thinking I wasted a day.

 

[Can79]

Feeling positive, hopeful for the future and validated today.:)

 

[Deleted member 12723]

Feeling so many different kinds of feelings. I got my taxes done yay. I did not have to wait. A very sweet girl helped me. I was so overwhelmed that I disassociated during the time. Overall it was a good experience for me. I am getting back way more than I thought I would. It will pay some bills. I am drained, exhausted mentally and physically and feel like a space cadet. Not sure why it was so difficult for me today. But damn, I sure am relieved that I got them done for another year. Hugs for everyone that needs them today.

 

[ms spock]

Felt really stressy, angsty, overwhelmed, upset, crawling out of my skin with anixety but rang Life Line and spoke to this lovely young guy for about 9 minutes. Had a little weep and it released the pressure.

It makes such a difference to just talk about the feelings and have them reflected back to me with compassion. One day I will be better at doing it for myself, but right now - the pain you have to feel, but the suffering is optional - and talking to someone about the big scary feelings of PTSD means something shifts and I am not suffering now.

 

[Philippa]

I feel a bit depressed, not enough sleep...disturbed sleep from being woken up earlier by the phone, now a bit drowsy and glum. I need to look for more work, which is daunting to say the least. I feel hungry, my solar plexus feels somewhat ...pressed down, but it's lightening now that I'm placing my awareness there and acknowledging the feeling...which I'm relieved about. Feeling slack, unmotivated, a bit whingy and blah. Feeling drained.

 

[ninja]

I've been having some really crazy dreams lately: incredibly literal and relevant.

Feeling healthier and more centered.. looking forward to an upcoming massage appointment. :angelic: Today I enjoyed the rainy, cozy, windy vibe. Doing well. :)

 

[franciemarnie]

I feel down.

I was tired today. I took a short walk on the deck attached to our building. I was listening to lazy slow jazz and zoning out. With my iPod, I wasn't wearing my hearing aids. Two dressed up women approached and started questioning me if I belonged in the building, if I lived there. I was zoned out, trying to understand, assuming they were new office staff. I answered questions without hesitation before I sort of woke up and said, why are you asking me these questions. They said something about strangers getting into the building. I started defending myself, I lived there four years, etc. They walk away smiling, oh okay.

Then I start to feel mad. Mad that I automatically revert back to feeling I must answer all questions, having to do what anyone asks me to, as having no rights. They didn't even work in the office it turns out. I don't know who they were.

I feel down that I am not aware sometimes, that I lived a life feeling I needed to justify myself for living, to explain myself.

I will try to be more aware. I felt my stomach tense when I was justifying my right to be there, but being tired, I ignored it. Plus without hearing aids, I try to get conversations over fast.

I live and (try to) learn. But decades of habit take time to change.

Ugh. Sorry for long one. Thanks for listening.