What Do I Do Now?

[sally]

went to the councler today seems my mind broke again!
I see the councler twice a month/the head dr. once/reg dr the other week/ plus I have a phone councler for 24/7 calls.
seems the stress from the insurance company won't let me go to school for retraining. But they say I can't be a conveniece
store clerk/mag again I've 21 years in that place. ths stray gun shot that look my therpy horse from me.(freinds lent me another horses):thumbs-up the death of my close freind Robin we share grandkids together and 41 years of lifes ups and downs.
now her daughter has a spot in her lung/heart area test tommorow operations on friday she's the mother of my grandkids/like my daughter/my close freind/ " I'm scared "
good news though my other daughter-in-law started working today. It's not going to be easy for them with two young girls 3 & 5 years old.............:clap:
any idea where I go to from here?
BUT one thing I do know is ptsd is the ----"s and I wouldn't even wish ptsd on my ex-mother-in-law:wink:
sally
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[anthony]

Sally, your asking a question that cannot be answered like your wanting it to be. You are only thinking about your present situation, not the problem. Your basis is purely upon your present, yet I do not hear that you have actually healed any of your trauma.

Your present events, feelings and so on are only symptoms of the cause, being your trauma. To fix you, to lessen your symptoms, you need to focus on the core of your problem, being your trauma. A diary is your best bet in the public areas, member trauma diaries, so that others can help guide you through your trauma and healing journey.