What If I'm Just Lazy?

[HOPEFULHEART82]

This sounds like me to a "T", even the part about feeling like Im being lazy. I've come to accept it, and I try to keep mentally clear, and remain focused on it eventually ending. I used to let it take over for however long it wanted to. Now I fight even in one small way, to try to keep the "door open" for my motivation and energy to return. Seems like the more I have on my plate the more I wear myself thin, then my ptsd, "shuts me down". whereas in the past I'd keep going, full steam ahead, sleep only 2-4 hours out of necessity, because I was everywhere doing everything, being a "super" human. Now, if I even try to do 80% of what I used to (150%), my body cuts me off at the pass, and the lazy days ensue. For me, it correlates with where I'm at in my symptoms, if I'm overwhelmed like I am now, everything is an uphill battle.

 

[Definitely..maybe]

@scout86 Without hijacking this post does any one else get the same? Does this go hand in hand with our 'lazy' times?

I definitely do! I can even go a little longer sometimes, I'll get a full time job work for several weeks on high, then my body gets physical issues and emotionally I break. It's happened enough to know I can't do 100%. I'll have a great day where I make plans and get stuff done and then BAM, I'm done. It sucks!

 

[Britta Dueholm]

I often feel awfully tired and drowsy, as if I've been knocked down with a hammer. I believe it is a natural reaction for many of us who suffer PTSD. It takes an enormous amount of energy. My body is always extremely tense, even in my sleep at night. I often wake up with a very tense body and clenched fists. It is exhausting to live with this damned tension all the time. I do yoga regularly, and it sometimes help a little, but not for long. I would do anything to be able to really relax. In the passed I sometimes took a tranquillizer. It was heaven. It was as if my body and mind were released from prison. I stopped taking that many years ago because it is unhealthy and it doesn't solve the problem. Laziness? Definitely not.

 

[scout86]

@scout86

Without hijacking this post does any one else get the same? Does this go hand in hand with our 'lazy' times?

That's it exactly! Except that sometimes it goes hour to hour or day to day, rarely a whole week at a time.

 

[Britt.f7]

I've even asked my therapist about this. Thinking I must just be lazy. She said it's the depression. Of course, feeling like you are just lazy doesn't help the depression or make you more energetic. It just makes it worse.

 

[DMerish]

Same here. Sometimes, even when I'm feeling physically good, I simply have no motivation.

Could it be Double Depression (DD)?

I like to compare myself to marmite, you either love me or hate me.

I didn't know what this was so I looked it up, and it's chemical properties as well. Apparently, Marmite (also Vegemite in Austrailia) has a lot of properties that increases seratonin.

 

[Miss cptsd xx]

@definately..

I didn't know what this was so I looked it up, and it's chemical properties as well. Apparently, Marmite (also Vegemite in Austrailia) has a lot of properties that increases seratonin.

Wow I don't like marmite, I'm not eating it even if it does make me happier :wtf: Yuk!