What Made You Angry Today?

[Finding Shawna]

My Mother! I am cleaning up her mess after she decided to walk away from my dad after 35 years of marriage. She called and informed us over the phone on Christmas Eve. I have not heard from her since. My 3 brothers either. We were such a close family. My brothers are more like my children and my very co-dependent father is like a zombie right now. I am staying with him, but it's as though I am playing "fill" in wife. She is tearing our family apart and tells my dad she doesn't care what anyone thinks. We all need to grow up and get over it! I caught her having an affair 4 or 5 years ago and carrying that secret has eaten me up inside. A phonecall from a friend sayin she saw something mom posted on FB made me furious! I was having such an ok day yesterday. I feel a responsibilty to my family, but I am dealing with my own demons that none of them know about. Anger like this scares me, it drove me to cutting again, which is something I haven't done in years.

 

[who am i kim]

Angry that I can't communicate what I want/need to say.

 

[discarded]

Angry that my exhusband stopped the automatic payment for child support for our daughter who I have 100% care of at jhis request. I rely on that money to pay the rent etc. very distressing that it didn't turn up. Then I had to contact him about it which i hate doing. I hate that I have to rely on him to survive. Makes me all the more determined to find a job with more hours of work.

 

[Loloma]

I'm angry at my own stupidity.

Finally went on a date after a couple of years being alone. I met this guy at the airport on the way back from my holiday overseas last month. He seemed nice and has been texting for every since. Went to a nice restaurant, and made the mistake of letting him come back to my place for a drink.

He ended up on the couch as he had too much to drink. Well that is where he should of stayed. Didn't get out of control, at least he understood what no means.

What is it with some men!! I'm not into speed dating and I really can't stand it when I'm told "we're not getting any younger". To much flattery can be annoying, it doesn't impress me, actually it makes me feel sick.

Guess it's back to the drawing board for me. :cautious:

 

[pumpkinpie]

Hahaa...I was angry when I saw how long the list of replies to this question was because I don't have the energy to read but a few! I was already angry for having spent my entire day in bed, as a result of being very angry and hurt when my 20 year old son (away at college and I've only seen him on one occasion, for a few hours, since last June) responded to my text message of, "Whatcha doing today?" with, "Please stop bugging me". I just had a decent week, and now, I'm just angry and sad :(

 

[Gamereign555]

I drank a bottle of wine and a beer today. I'm angry because it makes me no better than my step dads. I will go to treatment tomorrow though.

 

[Gamereign555]

I drank a bottle of wine and a beer today. I'm angry because it makes me no better than my step dads. I will go to treatment tomorrow though.

God I need help, I cant believe I did this.. My girl, my family. What the hell is wrong with me? I know I am scared.

 

[pumpkinpie]

god i need help, i cant believe I did this.. my girl, my family. What the hell is wrong with me? I know I am scared.

You can't compare yourself with you stepfather(s), who I'm guessing were abusive as well as drinkers...only the behavior after the drinking, and it doesn't sound similar - not if you are getting help.

 

[Gamereign555]

I know you all can't help me with the big picture I should be seeing. I'm just tired of the 'one step forward and two steps back' idea. I almost had it. I really did. I have no choice but to seek help, it just seems pointless to go after life again. Starting again from scratch just seems like abyss.

 

[ms spock]

I feel angry at the family of origin messes in my self I have to heal.

I felt upset and angry at how I was treated at 15.

 

[Gamereign555]

I feel angry at the family of origin messes in my self I have to heal.

I felt upset and angry at how I was treated at 15.

Yeah... Im way older than that, I need to just move on from that and not care about what my girlfriends family thinks of me.

 

[pumpkinpie]

I'm just tired of the 'one step forward and two steps back' idea. I almost had it.

Just a few days ago, I said this very same thing...that any amount of time off the alcohol or drugs, is cumulative and therefore is progress. It's a process involving many steps, and despite relapses, you do grow and get better. I "relapsed" 8 or 9 times before I had any lengthy period of sobriety. I found it much easier to keep trying, once I realized this. I hope you find that helpful too!