It is definitely more challenging with future relationships when it's someone we love thar hurts us.
Not only was my abuser sick in the head, he thought he was God's gift to women. Everyone was shocked that this would've happened to me. I see a difference with compared to other sufferers who were children and abused through fear. I was a very strong, dominant woman and part if my rage was also unforgiveness towards myself. I hated him (I'm being gentle with my words), but hated myself for allowing it when I knew better. I don't know if you are experiencing some of that yourself. BUT that self-hate doesn't mean we are responsible in any way.
One day at a time...
Not only was my abuser sick in the head, he thought he was God's gift to women. Everyone was shocked that this would've happened to me. I see a difference with compared to other sufferers who were children and abused through fear. I was a very strong, dominant woman and part if my rage was also unforgiveness towards myself. I hated him (I'm being gentle with my words), but hated myself for allowing it when I knew better. I don't know if you are experiencing some of that yourself. BUT that self-hate doesn't mean we are responsible in any way.
One day at a time...