What Made You Angry Today?

[Pencil]

I am angry because I have such a massive deficit - emotionally, socially, financially etc. - that I'm beginning to realise I'll never recover and join the ranks of the 'normal'. I'm angry, and sliding into an even worse depression.

 

[Let It Be]

Well, it seems that my anger is trying to teach me something as I'm dealing with another situation. This is one area that I really need to work on anyway, as I have a habit of losing myself to another person, thinking they know best, etc., discounting myself, etc.

Received an e-mail this morning from someone I went to high school with, many years ago. In her e-mail, she is asking several others, including myself, about getting together in April, in the city we went to high school at.

What? It made me mad, and I started to name off all the reasons why I couldn't go. I then begin to second-guess myself which would make me mad all over again!

For the time being, I will not reply to her e-mail.

 

[Britt.f7]

My vision of myself is skewed in a negative way. It's going to take hard work to change that around. It shouldn't be so hard, it really shouldn't.

 

[Chincho]

The depression is back. After 3 weeks without it, I somehow believed it wouldn't return.

 

[ms spock]

I am angry at what a compromised situation B is in. Tis tough.

 

[Eric23]

I am in long term treatment for physical medical condition with no connection to my PTSD. I had to talk to a new doctor who did not believe that the nausea, fatigue, and exhaustion were side effects from the meds they have me on. Tried to blame on the PTSD and the meds I take for that. Would not listen to me when I tried to explain that PTSD does not do that. He has no training in psychiatric medicine, he's a kidney specialist.

 

[Cerulean Synapse]

I can say that the thing that mad me angry today, is I tried to tell my father, Yeah yeah yeah, my father had physically and i mean really badly physically abused me while he was drunk and then can't remember he is in denial. So the story goes is he wants a regularly relationship with his daughters forgetting all the stuff he has done to me. And I told him that can't see him or talk to him that I need stability in my life. My siblings convinced me to talk to him about why I am not seeing him. And he goes same old story same song, grow up. So I am angry and I want to punch the guy and i am down too. The guy is a in permanent denial, won't fess up and is not a grown man I get it.

 

[ms spock]

I am so angry at how dissociated I have been for so many years.

 

[Britt.f7]

I'm angry at myself for thinking I want to heal, yet avoiding the hard work I need to do to get me there.

 

[Britt.f7]

I'm angry that we didn't get the loan modification. Apparently two months behind in mortgage, since my husband lost his job, is not enough. They want you to be in foreclosure or heading into that before they help you. I find that irritating and irresponsible. We need the help now so that we don't get to that point!

 

[Britt.f7]

Today my oldest son's teacher contacted us to let us know that Zac hasn't been doing his homework. As if that wasn't enough, he has been lying to me telling me he has no homework. I hate him lying. I know he lies to avoid trouble and other things but his lying just makes everything worse. Now I have to wait until he gets home before I can deal with it.

 

[BlackbirdSinging]

Being backed into an argument by someone. I made a statement. And someone perceived my statement as being argumentative. They began insisting I was arguing with them and then backed me into a corner with their words and imposed their opinion on me. They persisted by insisting that I was arguing. This ended up becoming an argument. They went on to laugh condiscendingly at me stating how they were right as I was now arguing with them. Can I scream now? I really wish people wouldn't toy with me when they see that they're triggering me.