What Makes You Angry Today?

[Cufflinks]

I feel like my anger is the first emotion that arises upon what I perceive to be a negative interaction with people.
When people around me do something stupid, I often perceive it as a threat or attack. My first response to said threat is anger and defense or counterattack. This happens to me most often on the road. Like someone driving too slow in a POS car that suddenly merges, I see VBIED.
Does anybody else feel this way?
I can't drive anywhere without scanning the buildings rooftops and windows.

Hi Shogun,
I'm a Navy vet from the Falklands War in 82. I don't do the rooftop thing but your comment about anger is the first emotion is like hearing myself think. For me, it's got progressively worse to to point that my wife has had enough and I guess I can't blame her. I'm just starting the process of getting help but at least I've now recognized myself for what I'm suffering and making other people suffer. God, it's shitty.

 

[Cufflinks]

Well, looks like they are going to send me up for med board. over 15 yrs active duty combined and three national guard. Don't know what is gonna come of that. Praying they retire me. Have another VA C&P exam next week. The holidays are upon us and the stress with all there is with that. There is good, I woke up again today to fight the good fight. I have 5 wonderful kids and a wife that deserve a better me. So, my friends the bottom line is I ain't givin up no matter how rough the road gets. I have to look for more positive things that make me happy and try not to dwell on the negative. Sounds like an easy formula, but so darn hard.

Hi Jr,
Good luck with your med board. It sounds like you have the right focus to get through this. I have 3 young kids and a wife that has put up with more hell than she can take. I wish you well with the battle

 

[Cufflinks]

I can handle the flashbacks, and the emotions but I really have to get to grips with the anger thing. I can go from nought to neuclear in a sentence. I don't get violent (ever) but I get so angry and all I do is hurt my wife. I need this to stop and am finally seeking help even if it turns out too late to save the marriage.

 

[Ned]

I can handle the flashbacks, and the emotions but I really have to get to grips with the anger thing. I can go from nought to neuclear in a sentence. I don't get violent (ever) but I get so angry and all I do is hurt my wife. I need this to stop and am finally seeking help even if it turns out too late to save the marriage.

It needn't be. Good luck.

 

[Cufflinks]

It needn't be. Good luck.

Thanks for the encouragement Ned. Unfortunately, my wife has said that she's "tired of walking on eggshells" and can't see any other option than a divorce.

 

[combatgoldfish]

I'll move on that's for sure. I'm going to be renting out a room while wait to lease agreement to run out on the house her and I share. I would break the lease if I could but it could cost me thousands of dollars.

I'm going to try and re-join the military at least a part time gig. I figure it will help with giving me some structure and help me not to self destruct as much. Plus I wouldn't mind going back overseas. It would be much easier without a spouse and worrying about paying bills.

 

[Wagon]

Well, the gloves are off. After 2 years of f*cking around and me being nice, I finally called my ex on all her bullshit.

Of course now I'm mean, and in a dark place just not a nice person. I didn't call names. Just laid down the facts.

f*cking hell, Beat a dog too much and he is going to turn on you.

 

[JarHed]

Beat a dog too much and he is going to turn on you.

It seems like a simple thing to understand. Yet the a-holes of the world just don't get it. They task you, and then when you bite they act surprised. 99% of the human race are morons. They couldn't find they're shoes if they were on their own feet.

It's nice to be a nice guy, but there's a point.

 

[Ned]

Cutting some slack to the f*#kwits. Oh yes.
Wagon and Jar, I think this is probably the most common denominator that f#*ks up our shit, as Warren Zevon (bless'im) would say.
Because we know how to really inflict damage, I think most of us instinctively shy away from the loss of temper/retaliation that most people can get away with. We suck it up.
Which isn't good for us. Part of the load we carry, I suppose.
Part of the 'heads you win, tails I lose'.

 

[tnkg1rl]

I'm not…I'm tired and exhausted. The husbands not talking to me again, his brother tried to commit suicide so I bought him a bus ticket from Kansas City to vermont to get away from that hell hole. I thought that by doing that I might make him happy And to be honest I'm kinda sick of trying. I know I'm not easy to be around either but I'm a talker, I like to communicate, he won't say anything at all. Not feeling really merry right now. Actually feeling kinda shitty :(

 

[combatgoldfish]

I'm not…I'm tired and exhausted. The husbands not talking to me again, his brother tried to commit suicide so I bought him a bus ticket from Kansas City to vermont to get away from that hell hole. I thought that by doing that I might make him happy And to be honest I'm kinda sick of trying. I know I'm not easy to be around either but I'm a talker, I like to communicate, he won't say anything at all. Not feeling really merry right now. Actually feeling kinda shitty :(

Could be worse, you could be in my situation. My ten year relationship is destroyed. Twice this week she hasn't come home at all. When she is here, she goes into the bedroom and closes the door. Friday night, I pushed myself to go out and drinking triggered me. Drank until I blacked out. At home I screamed and cried for the first time in months. I ended up ripping two doors completely out of the frame and somehow put a hole in the wall. Like I threw something at the wall, but have no clue. I can only remember bits and pieces of the night. I feel like such a monster. :(

I spent a better part of the day, making repairs and cleaning up the mess I made. I've closed nearly everyone out of my life, so, I have no one to talk to about what's going on. It's honestly tough but the avoidance part of the PTSD has pushed me away from everyone. The thought of suicide has even crossed my mind but I couldn't bring myself to do it. I can't self terminate. My only hope is next week goes better than this week. I'm going to the hospital tomorrow and I have an appointment for mental health on Tuesday. At least this session, I'll have something to talk about lol.

 

[tnkg1rl]

Hang in there... No sure mine is gonna last much longer either he's fine and then He just flips the switch, told him to ight I'm done trying, he's bi polar among allrhe ither problems and I just can't see him putting us first anymore above his families bullshit arggggh so irritated. I'm not one to break things I just open my mouth and out comes things I really don't mean thTs my defense mechanism I'm hurt and confused and lost......