Right now I just am at a loss. I can normally analyse my anger and put it in perspective, even after an outburst, it's something they taught us on the AM (Anger Management) Course.
I know I have a lot of things going on and the boss told me to hold off on any work that comes in for now. After all it is a hobby business.
The problem is my stress levels are just so damn high.
So here is a list:
Just had surgery (Over a month now) and had to change my whole way of eating.
16 year old has moved back in and I can't get it through his selfish teenage thick head that he f*cked up his schooling and now has to listen to me.
And to top it all off, yesterday I found out that a good mate of mine who died earlier this year actually hung himself. Everyone told me it was natural causes. f*ck I hate being lied to regardless of the reasons.
I have tried the whole cup of harden the f*ck up, in actual fact I have tried buckets of the shit.
When I am driving along I all of a sudden notice my hands are gripping the steering wheel that tight the old white knuckles are showing.
And when people get in my road at the shops I feel like just pushing them out of my way.
f*ck... f*ck.... f*ck...
I know I have a lot of things going on and the boss told me to hold off on any work that comes in for now. After all it is a hobby business.
The problem is my stress levels are just so damn high.
So here is a list:
Just had surgery (Over a month now) and had to change my whole way of eating.
16 year old has moved back in and I can't get it through his selfish teenage thick head that he f*cked up his schooling and now has to listen to me.
And to top it all off, yesterday I found out that a good mate of mine who died earlier this year actually hung himself. Everyone told me it was natural causes. f*ck I hate being lied to regardless of the reasons.
I have tried the whole cup of harden the f*ck up, in actual fact I have tried buckets of the shit.
When I am driving along I all of a sudden notice my hands are gripping the steering wheel that tight the old white knuckles are showing.
And when people get in my road at the shops I feel like just pushing them out of my way.
f*ck... f*ck.... f*ck...