What Makes You Angry Today?

[Friday]

Any kind of water I can't swim in.

Geysers. Swamps. Anything with crocodiles in it even if it isn't some kind of festering godforsaken pestilential suppurating mosquito infested decaying filthy swamp. Rain. Humidity. Cricks. Empty swimming pools. My basement.

I swear... I'm an inch away from tiling that sucker and filling it with water on purpose. But not today. Today it shall have to sort itself out, as I'm in a hotel (with an empty pool, I might add) on my way to go camping (the irony is not lost). My basement can suck it. At least I'm on the west coast. If I were down south, a bleeding alligator might just decide to take up residence. One less thing.

 

[Joshua Wood]

I am so glad I found this place, I have found my self lately stumbling through angry rages over the drop of a hat. It seems like more and more when the heat comes my anger starts to flare up. I dont know if its some kind of stressor from all the time I spent in Iraq.
Like some of the others who have posted here talking about rage when driving, I gave it up. I couldn't do it any more, my head was on a swivel the hole time and it was to hard to focus on just driving becuase their are so many people on the road. Do not even talk to me about night driving, ever slowed down to 15 miles an hour on the freeway to check a suspicios item on the side of the road as you try to move to the far lane to bypass. Try to explain that to the car full of people headed to the bar with you.

 

[atilla]

This place has made a difference in my life by being able to talk to Brothers and Sisters going through the same things that I am. It's comforting anyway to know that none of us are alone in this. This is almost like a journal for me. It's easier for me to write how I feel,and getting a response from another human being who knows what I'm talking about, is awesome. CHEERS Brothers and Sisters!

 

[atilla]

Joshua, I don't drive either Bro, lost my license to a DUI. I made a stupid mistake. I won't do it again. Your friends wouldn't understand unless they had been there with you. I gave up on explaining to my civilian friends why I am like this. I have my wife do it....she can explain to them why I am the way that I am a lot better than I can....lol...I use too many "f*ckS", and "SHITS" to explain why I have ptsd...

 

[Joshua Wood]

Atilla I am the same way, When I go out I leave it up to my wife to explains to everyone, why I do what I do and act the way I am now. Wilderness I am hoping you bought it from a dealership, that way you at least got some laws to back you up for returning it.

 

[dutchiedelta]

Pissed off from yet another phonecall with the treatment center.
Waitinglist for intake was three months so ought to have had intake yet.
September is earliest they probably can do.
waitinglist treatment got longer as well. With a bit of luck my. Nr's up early 2016.
Nice lady on the phone told me to go back to GP. Had to explain twice we tried to get support for inbetween but they all say they're not qualified enough or know shit all just civilian ptsd.
That means hold on, put on a happy face and hang in there?
f*ck this.

 

[Anglesachse]

Dutchie if the GP is fobbing you off because all he/she knows is Civi PTSD.

Drag their arse over the table and slap some sense into them

PTSD is PTSD, makes no difference where you get it from.

Only difference is we usualy react/overreact more extreme to stressors and shit in general to what a normal civvie does.

 

[Anglesachse]

My therapist out here in Germany was a full blown civvie, never had a vet in her life.

Still helped me no end. I owe her a lot

 

[dutchiedelta]

Just got off the phone with a nurse from the center with the looooooooong waitinglist.
She had an email from her colleague I spoke this morning and was worried. Yeah be worried miss cos we talked about every possibility. Ain't none available, that's the long and short of it.'
They're inundated with new clients and the list goes on and on and on...

Asked her if I should start drinking, do drugs or beat the crap out of people. Those that make waves seem to get help sooner.
No answer..strangely enough.

She really tried to find some solution for support now but unless I go private (means PYO) they won't take me into treatment cos I'm what they call here third line severe. Just like all the other bonkers here.
A regular civvie therapist is not allowed to treat third liners cos they might do more damage than good.
I'm f*cked and that nurse agreed.

Angle the GP is good. He used to be an army dr although I doubt he's ever been on a mission. But he gets it and does what he can.
Which is refer me to this center with the insane long waitinglist.
I know a clinic in Germany, Uchtspringe where they have a new PTSD program. My insurance will pay for it after me seeing the psychiatrist there. Getting a plan and time schedule. Wait for approval and within a year or two I could get treatment there.

Who said irony was dead?

 

[Raven]

Asked her if I should start drinking, do drugs or beat the crap out of people. Those that make waves seem to get help sooner.
No answer..strangely enough.

Basically true. You have to show up to the VA in the middle of a full-blown bender to get substance abuse help.

 

[Friday]

Catch22.

In the middle of a bender, aren't most people finally feeling fine, just fine?

 

[Raven]

Catch22.

In the middle of a bender, aren't most people finally feeling fine, just fine?

Generally.

Unless it's a terrible, shitty bender that took a wrong turn somewhere and you're just angry.