What's Keeping You Alive?

[safenow]

(((( Kim )))), safe, gentle hugs.

I'm not good enough to go to heaven, not bad enough to go to hell. When God wants me, i'll go. Until I hear Him call me home, you all are stuck with me here on earth.

safenow

 

[GreenFrog2]

Not sure actually. Part just plain old stubbornness, and like bright_morning, I quite simply don't want "them" to win.

Sometimes I can see a light at the end of the tunnel - no idea how to get there, but it can be comforting knowing that it's there!

 

[AngelKeeperJ]

My son, his wife, and my granddaughter!!

 

[Kim500]

safenow - First of all, for purely selfish reasons I like you here on earth! :D But seriously, going to Heaven doesn't really have to do with being "good enough". No one is good enough, not even Mother Teresa, and I'm sure she would agree with me if she were on earth today! She turned to Jesus as her Savior and Redeemer. She said in a poem she wrote that He was her Everything. If Mother Teresa needs Jesus to save her, so do we.

For me, I do the best I can and I leave my Salvation in His hands where it should be.

**P.S. Thank you for those wonderful hugs!! I really need them today!!

 

[Innordinate]

My own ability to amuse myself.

 

[Kim500]

I like it Innordinate!

My children and the fact that I'd need someone to take my life for me as I not only think too highly of myself, but I am indecisive regarding some decisions. :confused:..:cautious:

I'm not sure what you mean, but I'm sending you hugs!!!!

I understand because I have no hope, and have felt frequently well off of God's radar.

Junebug, you are not off God's radar. He is constantly aware of Everything He created, loves it, and maintains it in existence. He loves you! I read once, and I believe it, that God loves each soul as if it was the only one that exists...

 

[Ayasha]

1. My nieces and nephews. I was sixteen when my eldest niece was born and I was in a bad place in my life (didn't know why at the time, but I hated myself so very much) and holding her filled my heart up with happiness so much I just couldn't give up on life. These kids are why I am alive right now, I truly believe that. They'll never know it but they saved my life.

2. I'm really, really stubborn. Every time the doctors ask if I have suicidal thoughts I say yes but I'm too stubborn to give in to them. ;)

 

[goingonhope]

I'm not sure what you mean, but I'm sending you hugs!!!!

My children and the fact that I'd need someone to take my life for me as I not only think too highly of myself, but I am indecisive regarding some decisions. :confused:..:cautious:

The fact that I have children that I love and whom need me.

My realization that I'd never be able to intentionally commit suicide and that even if I came to know someone whom would do this for me, I still have children who love me and need me and whom I love.

Also, I'm being honest with self-value issues not being the root of my periods with suicidal ideation and/or such suicidal fantasy. I believe, I often think as highly of myself as does the next healthy person. I wish to live.

Living is what I do well. It is only when their is interferences such as unrelenting stressors, declining Ptsd manageability from overwhelming stressors, obstacles too big for me to manage (including chronic declining illness) and triggers, as well as,.......

...can't finish now as I'm becoming too frustrated from way to great of interruptions here.

"I am indecisive regarding some decisions." ...undecided at the moment what I may of meant when writing this. (lol)

 

[kodiak]

motivation to live and a good T

 

[Loveneverfails]

I don't know what it is, but it doesn't stop.

 

[Kim500]

What a wonderful post Ayasha!!! I'm so happy for you:playful: (I want to say proud of you!!!) You go girl! :tup:

 

[Kim500]

goingonhope - Thank you for taking the time to explain to me what you meant!!!!:happy: