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That is what I am really struggling with. I am really struggling with this!What I realised at one point was that I was removed from myself all the time, emotionally and bodily.
The massive overwhelming shame is humungus. It just floods in, and I want to die, to numb, to eat, to binge watch TV, to dissociate.
That is something I struggle to understand.Grounding is essentially getting in touch with the here and now - both internally and externally.
This is the problem. I have rarely been there or here, or anywhere.That can be a problem if everything in you uses a coping method of trying to get away from these things.
It doesn't take much for me to go in to depersonalisation , derealisation, dissociation, binge eating, numbing, self attacking, corrosive self doubt,
That is the tricky diabolical bit.For me being in touch or aware of my body was triggering. I worked on a half way point solution initially.
That is why I am trying to learn a musical instrument.Doing mindfulness and grounding that wasn't about the body as much as time, place, environment.
Yeah, yeah, yeah! That I cannot do as of yet! Trying to get that - I seem to need about 4 hours of physical activity to actually be grounded but still can have a panic attack.The body part needed to still be focused outwards if that makes sense. Not too much focus on the body itself.
I kind of think I know what you mean but I am not sure I really know.
Couldn't read this all so please excuse if not relevant! I hope you find something that works for you.
That is really helpful @Abstract - you really get the body as a trigger
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