32 year old gay male NY.
Just learning that I have PTSD with a therapist so I still have some exploring to do. One of my coping mechanisms is to read so I already have digested a ton of information about PTSD.
My boyfriend of 6 years also has PTSD. He has said he wants to break up with me but this is a typical pattern of ours (attachment issues as I've learned). He has not accepted that he has PTSD and has not been talking with me for three months making things extra challenging. Him wanting to break up is what really set off my symptoms and got a therapist pointing towards PTSD.
Many events in my life could have caused this including: Physical and emotional abuse in my childhood home, bullying, being robbed at gunpoint, spinal surgery,an abusive relationship, getting an STD, being cheated on, and who knows what else I'll unearth lol.
My everyday experience is feeling my anxiety fluctuate from low to high levels and back. I know a lot of the triggers but I don't have many coping mechanisms to manage it. So I can be stuck at a 7 to 10 for hours which is agonizing. It's like feeling that nothing is safe and there's no solid ground to stand on. I question my sanity sometimes in those moments.
I've realized that community is something I'm missing in my life. PTSD throughout my life has made it hard for me to connect with and trust people. I'm hoping this forum will be helpful.
Thanks for sharing this experience with me.
Just learning that I have PTSD with a therapist so I still have some exploring to do. One of my coping mechanisms is to read so I already have digested a ton of information about PTSD.
My boyfriend of 6 years also has PTSD. He has said he wants to break up with me but this is a typical pattern of ours (attachment issues as I've learned). He has not accepted that he has PTSD and has not been talking with me for three months making things extra challenging. Him wanting to break up is what really set off my symptoms and got a therapist pointing towards PTSD.
Many events in my life could have caused this including: Physical and emotional abuse in my childhood home, bullying, being robbed at gunpoint, spinal surgery,an abusive relationship, getting an STD, being cheated on, and who knows what else I'll unearth lol.
My everyday experience is feeling my anxiety fluctuate from low to high levels and back. I know a lot of the triggers but I don't have many coping mechanisms to manage it. So I can be stuck at a 7 to 10 for hours which is agonizing. It's like feeling that nothing is safe and there's no solid ground to stand on. I question my sanity sometimes in those moments.
I've realized that community is something I'm missing in my life. PTSD throughout my life has made it hard for me to connect with and trust people. I'm hoping this forum will be helpful.
Thanks for sharing this experience with me.
