Who's Good At Poetry?

[Deleted member 5760]

If you SAY 'professional artist'. well, you better have the stuffing to back it up, you know?

Anni - I know this is gonna sound really ~overly complimentary~ (borrowing your words there) but no one in my family was artistic (other than my grandma - who was a piano prodigy but passed before I was even born). I was never pushed or prodded. It found me. I was the odd one out. That's why I find it so genuinely beautiful to find others who 'get it'.

I kinda giggle now because I know we butted heads at first on this site. I laugh at that now because we are in so many ways similar. And I DO remember that thread where you were kinda 'put to the task'. Ie saying you could paint and having people like 'prove it'. And you posted your paintings.

To echo your own words - 'well you better have the stuffing to back it up'

Well my dear, you backed it up! Well and truly. ~respect~

 

[anni]

Hee. I'm very, very bad when people are reactive with me, SJ. It's an Achilles Heel. I'm not just *caving* because you're pleasant and sweet- I just plain do not always step back as one should, know it, and dislike this in myself. I then go on to be ouchy- do not view others clearly but stay wary and defensive. That's not being too hard on myself, either- it's basically unkind and unfair-things I'll dislike seeing in others so why tolerate in myself? I realize it's somewhat PTSD reactivity at work- but still- dislike it across the board in myself and it's very gracious of you to say all that.

Hee again- having said that, I'm still really bad at taking compliments but thank you! :)

With much respect also- and for the clear thoughts! It means kind of a lot at the moment.

 

[Deleted member 5760]

Anni,

I wouldn't call you unkind one little bit. In fact you've been a godsend these last few days.
Thank you so very much.

 

[anni]

Well, I've felt that way in the past, not seeing others clearly, and operating from a solely internal perspective. That's a big hook to be allowed off of, so thank you. You just take care-whatever it is, feel better.

 

[shadowchaser]

Thousand

A thousand words couldn’t bring you back
I know I’ve tried
A thousand tears couldn’t bring you back
I know I’ve cried
I could fill a thousand pages to tell you where I stand
But still you would not understand
So now I leave you standing without a sound
Other than my heart shattering as it hits the ground.

Short thing I did a bit back. Actually met someone I clicked with and the reason he left wasn't the ptsd or all the garbage that goes with it. I lost my phone for a bit. So he left me.