Why Are Things Going So Insane?

[Aaron Thistle]

My abuse started when i was three. i worked on controlling my flashbacks and the pain associated with them as soon as they became an issue ten years later. Recently they've come back with a vengeance, to the point I can't properly ground myself anymore. My emotions are shot, and it cost me the love of my life, and i didn't even bat an eye about it. Can't even tell flashbacks from life anymore, and when i can they just torture me while i sleep. I know part of this is my biggest trigger being my scars, but things have never gone this far before.

 

[rosey]

So sorry to hear that you are having such a rough time of it. I have similar bouts of it with flashbacks etc. just when I think like is going ok and I am handling everything boom they hit again. I find that being in therapy helps but also increases it at times too. So hard when they just creep up on you.

I have scars too unfortunately the most upsetting one is on my upper lip so cant do too much about it. I have read that some people have over come this tigger by having a really nice or meaningful tattoo done over them. I am not brave enough yet to go down that route (certainly not on my face) but I like the idea of it.

Apart from that it is all self care and riding it out, easier said than done. I find that guided meditations help especially at night after a nightmare.

 

[Aaron Thistle]

I think if i got a tattoo over it i would need to be strapped down i get hysterical when touch anything. I haven't let anything but water touch my back in years. I acrually have a cusion on my shower wall so i don't break my hand again.

 

[rosey]

Sounds really hard and I have nothing to suggest other than talking to someone trained in this area.