I think I need to keep trying to find out more on so many levels, thankyou again Kers, I am learning and this is good for me to do be able to find a way for me and to also develope my own path somehow perhaps.
I am not entirely sure how I feel about saying this here, but I have been writing my own meditations and guided imageries.
I have found apart from the cost and added room that buying things keeps taking up (and I am now in the process of trying to streamline my life), well apart from the other points, I have found that others or strangers guided imagery is not always on the mark for me, and so somethings that I am not worried or concerned by are mentioned and then I perhaps worry more on those, and others that I need to find peace on are left out and this causes me more pain and anxiety sometimes also.
Amongst all the books and cds I have purchased, I bought a cd a few years back and the begining was great but I found the part that kept playing after I feel asleep (as it was to help me sleep) well that part carried on with things that caused me pain and I do believe the messages went in as I slept. I began having night mares -more than normal and I began having more anxiety also, and I had no idea what was going in subconsciously really and when I discovered I kind of decided to steer away from strangers imagery from that time
I am not entirely sure how well or how my own attempts work, I know I modify and change them and sometimes I can do this just as the feeling takes me, I am not entirely sure how good it is to do this intuitively either but it has worked a little I believe.
We all have different triggers and pain with PTSD, and while we have to expose ourselves to this to aid our managment, I do not necessarily feel that for me when I am trying to find inner peace that painful exposure is really the way to go all the time. As my meditations and imageries are hopefully helping to soothing rather than over stimulate.
We are all different and I know meditations work on many levels, so I would not wish to dissuade anyone, but I would encourage to perhaps try to begin to write your own also, because they are so very peacefull to write and I have found that as I have written my inner turmoil has subsided some.
I worry that I am wide off the mark but at the same time I am growing also in developing my own skills in being able to self soothe and because of this I have found myself becoming more accepting and peacefull of my life and am able to own some things as a result.
I think the better that we begin to understand the person we are writing for whether it be ourselves or our partners, the better we are maybe able to soothe. For me also as each new day brings change I know I am able to find and develope on a meditaion that maybe worked for me a week ago in a different way.
I hope perhaps that this may help you also
And I hope this finds you well too, Take care in blossoming and peace to you ~
~fin
