Years Of Mind Numbing Experiments

[Krysti]

Hello my name is Krysti. I am 30 and wasn't diagnosed with PTSD until 2 failed diagnosis. My mother has always forced that I am MENTALLY ILL, referring to it like it was contagious for her to catch. I have two brilliant children that I had at a very young age. I would say this is where is all started but really it started at age 3, at least that is my first memory or trigger we could say. I do not have custody of my children at this time because due to my mis-diagnosis I self medicated with drugs and became very empty and hopeless. I am hoping this forum can help me. A friend said to me the other day if you can' t handle going to the groups, study about your illness and learn over the internet. So here I go. PTSD rules my life. I have sabotaged my brain and now I want to learn to live again.

 

[The Albatross]

Welcome Krysti. I can relate to the feelings of emptiness and hopelessness that come from self medicating... My substance of abuse was booze. Glad you're here.

 

[Srain]

Welcome to the forum Krysti,

I hope that you find this site as supportive as I have. There is a lot of information here. Take care of yourself.

Peace,
Rain

 

[jo may]

Hi Krysti and welcome to the site:)

I hope this site offers you the support you need, I've found it a great help.

I can understand I was mis-diagnosed as well, I self medicated with booze. My PTSD finally blew up and left me feeling numb,scared and a shell of my former self at christmas time last year. My oldest who is 8 started to look after me, untill I sat my husband down and told him it's not fair on her.

So in March this year he became my full time carer, I was finally diagnosed in May and it's been a up hill struggle. But I feel like I am slowly getting there.:tup:

I hope I see you in chat at some point, the chat room is great. But you take things at your own pace.
Take care
JM

 

[James B.]

Hi Krysti.

I can relate to what you wrote. Welcome to the forum!