You Know You Have PTSD When...

[ChildofGod]

you never realize how strong you truly are
I have learned that I am stronger than all of the things that hurt me. I am reclaiming my power back by those who have stolen it. I have never been the property of anyone, no matter how much they tried.
I belong to me. I'm more than a label.

 

[Friday]

When a list of things you're not doing is a pretty good list.

So. Damn. True.

 

[ChildofGod]

I put everyone before myself. Until I realized that I come first. This is very helpful insight for me.

 

[Keming]

... when a single hallway is a maze and a two-hall intersection is an Escher painting

 

[lostforgottensoul]

You are screaming at your ceiling at loud neighbors...when it's 1pm.

 

[Ronin]

When you lose days for a single frame.

Or: I shoulda deleted whole that drive, years ago.

 

[Friday]

This song actually (2nd degree*) triggered the f*ck out of me a few years ago. :bag: It’s a kid’s pirate song.

* The kind of thing where something triggers a memory, which then dominos into a series of memories/intrusive thoughts, which then cascades into flashbacks / panic attacks / rage storms / going cold & hard / zoning out / the whole shebang. >>> Thing itself isn’t a trigger of any kind, it’s the thoughts that follow it that tick tick BOOM.

Yep. Kids pirate song. :facepalm: Knocked me on my ass for weeks.

- We were so bored that we were ready to fight.

- (about someone running back inside) I would have to, if there’d been somewhere to hide

- I couldn’t hear the captains calls...

The whole thing was just like lighting a fuse, and flashpaper, and <low whistle> goodnight Irene. I was just gone.

Just heard it for the first time in years (oddly, that song seems to have disappeared from my playlist? Can’t imagine why. :coffee: And it’s funny. I can remember the whole series of events surrounding it.

Still can’t remember the f*ck I did with my shoes this morning. I had them, and then I was barefoot. O_o My brain and I need to have a wee chat about its priorities.

 

[Friday]

I appear to be on a tear today...

When you watch a movie and your response to it is

That is the most disrespectful rape scene I have ever seen! If you’re going to do a rape scene? FFS. Do it right! :mad:

 

[Ronin]

When someone suggests you could pray for people, and your answer is just lemon hell naw.

Not an action in my book. Not that desperate, yet.
So between coercion & f*ck all choices, SSDD, sail on.

But you’re :happy: Your answers to everybody line up. So its no, no, and hell no, no yesses, no guesses.

 

[Ronin]

... and when you decide to dwell on a decade old thing or two because it is less stressful than current things when even your support people communicate in one words.

Yo, what’s up with that, I thought I’m the one who ain’t talking, not you. :shifty:

 

[ChildofGod]

When narcissists affect my whole life and existence with their negativity and put downs. When I lost my sense of self, it was literally serving them with my whole existence. I am actually glad all of this happened so I can separate myself and start a new life by myself. As I evolve, my childhood hurt lessens.

I am healing and recovering.

 

[BlackbirdSinging]

When you're sitting in almost silence enjoying the peace. And you slowly turn your head hear a sound and start to get startled until you realize what you're hearing. It's the paper tag on the inside collar of your shirt. That's right. I got startled by the tag on my own shirt ??.