You Know You Have PTSD When...

[Ellabella44]

When you do some work involving your inner child in therapy the day before and decide to comfort her by playing solitaire alone and start hearing my husband doing dishes as my father downstairs smashing plates.

Had to reassure by going downstairs and seeing who it was.

 

[Friday]

When you “wake up” & feel really good about this holiday season.

There’s a cold streak that’s just hit, so the rain should be abating just in time for Halloween in a few days, and the dia de los muertos makeup is already out and neatly stacked... no last minute running around this year!

I’ve got some great ideas for Thanksgiving, next month.

Christmas is in about 2 months, which is the perfect time to prepare. Already have a few things lined up, and a few projects in mind.

Things are looking UP! :D It’s going to be a really, really good year, this year!

There’s only one thing that’s kind of strange/concerning; Why DOES the calendar say it’s Dec 27th???

 

[Ronin]

All the roflies Friday.

I just started grabbing Halloween horror movies.
To which people texted me good New Year's wishes. O.o

 

[Tinyflame]

Yep, feels like Christmas is coming, my calendar says October, & I just (rather accidentally) watched A Christmas Tree Miracle movie. . :confused:

 

[Ronin]

Lmao, Tinie.

We need new names for months. Folded out of other months.

This regular calender stuff just confuses poor peoples.

 

[Rani G2]

There is No threats but you fantasize about potential candidates that could harm you and should harm you because you deserve it...

 

[Friday]

We need new names for months. Folded out of other months.

This regular calender stuff just confuses poor peoples.

True that.

I miss being on a quarter system.
Fall Quarter
Winter Break 1&2
Winter Quarter
Spring Break
Summer Quarter
End of Summer.

I almost always took winter quarter off, and headed for the mountains 4-6 days a week. It worked. Fall quarter, when I go seriously sideways, I was busy. Might lose a weekend, but not months. 2 months of momentum from sept oct pushed through November until December arrived breathless. Took a week or 2 at the end of fall (winter break part I) to sleep & stay in & be silly & lazy & loosely plan the upcoming Fantasia. Then holidays (part II), more busy, different. Then 3 months of adrenaline, laughter, hot chocolate, hot tubs, & snow. Like being in the desert, the moonlight on snow bright enough to read at midnight. Sun 24/7. Falling into sleep utterly soft from exhaustion. New beginnings come spring. As it should be.

3 months on. 3 weeks off. Roughly. More less here there. I could make that work, with very little boot to neck.

Ah well. Can’t walk in the same river twice, and all that. That chapter’s done and gone.

But I do still prefer 7 unequal time slots to 12 neatly laid out months. Easier to maneuver.

 

[Ronin]

Lmao. I so far have Nocemtober.

November that's stressed out by Decembers and time wise in other, equal mess, October.

S2g I'll look for Septembers stress levels... as Septembers are at least straightforward. Jumping between the same kinds of f*ckups. The variance in other months can bite me.

 

[Rani G2]

When you yell at other people...

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[Ronin]

When...

'Oh f*ck your look. Somebody gonna die?' No.' 'Somebody *just* died?' 'No.' 'Somebody stole your old tapes and kids' toys again?' ... is seriously cracking you up.

All the shit I need to not quit talking to some friends for. Just humor.

Amidst serious reminders of good stuff that matters. True. Nothing's up... nobody stole my musics.

 

[Mee]

You are listening to an audiobook with a not rape but ‘grey area’ not affirmative and not enjoyed sex scene and you turn volume off so that it doesn’t upset your never assaulted or abused, totally sexually responsible partner - because they shouldn’t have to hear stuff like this. ?

 

[bellbird]

When the only license plate number you can remember is the one that belongs to your abuser.