when you have a nightmare, for the 1000st time, even more messed up than the previous one, you will be like, oh it's not that bad! Here we go again!!!
you see your therapist, more frequent than your friends and family, you even share bday cake!
you can not describe yourself ( who are you! loving?caring?strong?resilient?)
When your closets are full of stuffed away mess, what you don't see, is't there!;)
Emotions, what are emotions!
When you feel a stranger in the middle of your family, just want to cry at your own bday, while your family is singing, because it just feels sooooooo awkward and you prefer to have been in bed, covered up by the blankets!