You Know You Have PTSD When...

[Changing4Best]

... when your best friend tells you that she did not win in court concerning her Di$ability insurance and then falls out of touch with you, also failing to show up at your house for a visit that was planned before the above loss and you wonder if she has committed suicide, because she is PTSD and suffers from depression. You fear for the worst, but pray for the best, until you realize you don't even know what to pray for, for her! (And you have no way to reach her, as she has no phone) and lives too far away for you to get to her).

 

[Anrish]

When you don't want to read and cannot focus to read but still buy a magazin because you want to avoid people's looks.

 

[fellowsufferer]

When you feel like you've been cursed or have been dealt a bad deck of cards in life!! Feeling like you are standing on the outside of life, looking in! when it seems like other people are having an easier time of fulfilling their goals and dreams!

 

[Friday]

When you tell the ghosts to form a single file line to the right...

 

[Friday]

.... Then you find a comment next to the poem telling yourself you have no recollection of writing it, only you've no recollection of that either!

((Damn. Can't quote the whole thing! Consider the whole thing quoted))

LMAO... I do that... All. The. Time.

Read. Tilt my head. Huh. Well that sounds like something I'd say.

 

[Ronin]

... when you make a line of those comments there, because layered memory and working out truth/lie/how much truth = clusterf*ck in case your life didn't have enough of them

 

[Changing4Best]

When you find yourself being upset by someone giving you no notice about something you usually do with them every week, but they don't want to do it this week. Like, couldn't they have given you a little bit of notice, like even an hour or so, so you could make other plans?

 

[The Albatross]

I gotta ask Shelia... how much of this is routine/day to day stress? It ain't all PTSD. Somebody being inconsiderate... honey that ain't PTSD.

 

[Changing4Best]

I guess you are right, @The Albatross I wasn't thinking....

 

[Ocean5]

When you find a poem you have no recollection of writing.

I had that happen to me in high school. I was writing a painful paper about my youth (which did help me.) I'd go back to edit, and didn't remember writing things or even the events. That's when I first realized how compartmentalized my mind is....

 

[jaccat]

I have had it happen a few times, but then I write a lot of poetry. Up until recently I'd never heard of dissociation!

You know you have PTSD when you find yourself sniffing the washing to tell if you washed it or not!

 

[Changing4Best]

I do a lot of things I don't later recall having done. Someone will tell me I said or did something and I don't recall having done or said it at all. I will get this strange feeling about it too, just kind of a feeling like I am going out of my mind or am crazy or something. It is a feeling like I am wondering what I was when I did or said that!

Also, I tell friends when someone talks nasty stuff about them behind their back. Later, if that someone denies it, I start feeling doubtful about my memory, like did I really experience that or hear it or see it, yet I know I did, but still I doubt myself, and it feels like I don't exist or something. I cannot exactly explain that feeling. It is just really weird.