You Know You Have PTSD When...

[Forgetful]

You know you have PTSD when

You can't eat because you have constant nausea BUT you don't notice you lose 50 lbs in 6 months because you avoid mirrors and you're only wearing sweatpants these days.

 

[Ronin]

When you don't notice you lose weight unless someone's starving you.
And then you don't notice it either because you're too busy plotting how to get out and/or not deal with that son of a bitch.
When you notice how many very-normal pieces of your life are so off only after talking with people with different sort of off's.

 

[Ocean5]

You can't eat because you have constant nausea

I relate too well. And this never happen until I was put on medicine.

 

[Ellabella44]

When your worst nightmares are of people in your family who hurt you in the past and you are terrified because they just want to hug you.

 

[Ronin]

... When you trigger yourself to snap yourself out of stress current life is producing. Because that is sure going to produce bigger worries than so-pressing, so-insignificant, other dealings.

 

[Anrish]

When you often do not remember facts or surroundings but feelings, horrible feelings...which make anything else seem blurry.

 

[Ronin]

When you wish your head finally followed the plan for what you won't remember when. ;)
When you visit war memorials only to tell someone you respect them dearly, but for God's sake please hold me alive. Because your friends won't answer your phones and dealing with rejection's apparently harder than death.
When you have a Job worthy rant at God listing all the grievances of the past half a year and realize only then wow, you feel something about them.
When you continue that rant line at beloved commander, only to realize hours later crap, talking to him live won't be doable, he's been dead for a decade and some. (Nevermind! Those who are dead, are not dead, they're just living in my head. -Coldplay).

 

[Changing4Best]

@Cashew I'd say that he's in Heaven so you will see him again when you get there. You may have some very different things to talk about then though. Like much happier and carefree.

 

[Ronin]

@SheilaKathy, yeah, place he would, if anywhere. Had too big a heart, he. Thank you for the post, it made me smile and is appreciated.

 

[Recovery4Me]

I decide to stop hiding and be counted...because I have hidden long enough. So that is how I know I have it...I am naming it and claiming it decades after the diagnosis. It IS about effing time.

 

[Ellabella44]

When after one phone call with insurance you feel you should change your answering message to: " The party you are trying to reach is currently having a panic meltdown.... Please leave your message at the...EEK!"

 

[Ronin]

When you're happy for people pointing out some suicidality isn't what you mistake it, but again misplaced training.
When it takes you half an hour to write a simple line because the experiences behind it are too long & you're busy trying to do damage control about sharing.
When keeping simple logs on how you are is goddamn difficult, but since people won't accept your 'I'm always fine', -fine-!