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[lonelyone82]

Hi,

I have C-PTSD diagnosed about four years ago. It took a while to get properly diagnosed, and had been quite the battle. I try to have a positive attitude about the illness, and make the best of things. My PTSD is from long term abuse, and assault. I hope to find other people that understand, as it can be quite isolating at times. I have been to therapy, had a very good therapist, but had to move so I have been struggling to find a new one. I have a support group in the community though which is helpful. I'm just hoping to meet other people that are non-judgemental and supportive. I suffer with low self esteem and guilt/shame over my situation. My main abuser blamed me for the abuse put upon me, and the abuse that they gave to another person. They embedded it in my psyche at a young age that their actions were my fault, so I have been trying for the longest time to stop feeling like a horrible person inside. I'm really hoping I can find another therapist that is a down to earth person and supportive. Glad to have found this forum.

Thanks.

 

[EveHarrington]

Welcome to the forum. :)

 

[lonelyone82]

Thanks :)

 

[StillStella]

Hi,

I have C-PTSD diagnosed about four years ago. It took a while to get properly diagnosed, and...

Hi. I'm brand new here and yours was the first post I read. The part about shame? It grabbed me. I've struggled with PTSD and truly thought it was behind me. I ran across a picture on fb last night that caused me to spiral downward. I am experiencing all of the same feelings all
over again but also deep shame. And I can't figure it out. Anyway. You're not alone.

 

[Meh]

Welcome to the forum. I understand how you're feeling. My abuser never felt any guilt or remorse and told me I deserved the abuse, and that it was "normal". I was really brainwashed.
I have only recently been diagnosed with PTSD, after seeing a number of Ts. Finally this one (she's amazing) has diagnosed my problem correctly. Now to work on it. I hope you find a T as good as your last one soon so you can start your recovery.
Stay strong :)

 

[Higgins]

Hi,

I have C-PTSD diagnosed about four years ago. It took a while to get properly diagnosed, and...

I also have C-PTSD, from lots of things. Abuse, assault, etc. You're not alone. This forum can be a good place to talk. Anyway, I'm here.

 

[Friday]

I'm super duper judgmental, in fact try to exercise my judgment every single day & as often as possible...but if anything I've got to say at any point is useful for you? Have at :D Just take what you like & ignore the rest. And welcome

 

[Seasounds]

@lonelyone82, Hello and welcome! You're in a good place.

So often for me, change occurs, slowly with consistent action and with, as you mentioned, a good therapist. I look forward to reading more threads by you.

I'm sending you thoughts for finding a therapist that works for you!

 

[Suzetig]

Welcome to the forum.

 

[lonelyone82]

Thanks for the nice messages. :)

 

[sun seeker]

Welcome to the forum. I hope you will feel at home here. I'm sorry about all you have been through. You will find lots of people here who understand because we have been through similar experiences.

Best of luck on finding a new therapist you can connect with. That's so important. Crossing my fingers for you...

 

[intothelight]

@lonelyone82 Welcome to the forum! :)

Guilt and shame are common but perhaps the most difficult to overcome. There are a lot of good threads/posts about this topic and overtime you will find yourself letting go of these emotions and finding the freedom in healing;