Emberrassing Problem, Sexual In Nature

[Adrian2016]

I appreciate it, but I was in the wrong. I made you feel uncomfortable when thats the last thing you need right now. I think judging by the amount of responses you got to this post, that you fit quite nicely here. This is the place for you man. For people with ptsd like us. We all have embarrassing issues, hell, im embarrassed to even have ptsd, it makes me feel inferior. You are here to work on these issues and you are making some good efforts. Don't quit now bro. Its okay:)

 

[Wondering_Loner]

Thanks I still feel really bad about posting that and hurting you though. I don't like to do that. I get why you thought that from the posts. It makes sense from the other end.

So I'm really really sorry about that post

btw I feel inferior all the time too.

 

[Adrian2016]

Thanks I still feel really bad about posting that and hurting you though. I don't like to do th...

Dont apologize one more time! ;) well hey even though it wasn't the ideal way im glad to meet you man! I hope to give some more helpful and appropriate responses to some new posts by ya! And really I just misread the situation and talked out of my butt without thinking first, which is ignorant. I hold myself to a higher standard than that and so it wont happen again, and you dont need to apologize for the way you typed...stuff happens...miscommunication occurs, no biggie brother

 

[OrganicRobot]

Is your fetish more common then you realize? That may help with coming to terms with it. My concern is that you are reenacting trauma, which means you actually aren't truly into the fetish and that is what is disturbing you.

Reenact usually means that your mind is trying to accept what happened to you emotionally (desensitizing yourself and learning to accept what happened to you). You're re-exploring things to make sense of what happened. However, not all re-enactments are in the healthy and consenting range. If such is the case it is better to write (say story mode), or do some form of artistic expression instead for re-enactment. Even with healthy and consenting it still may be too traumatic and artistic expression may need to be utilized.

Perhaps art therapy may be useful?

 

[Wondering_Loner]

Well after talking it over I think I'm going to accept it on some level, but pursue normal things with real people. Basically I know I can't stop so no point in attacking myself over it. I have no idea if it is healthy or not. I don't think feeling out of control is good, but I can't claim to be in control either. Pretending I can stop is too painful.

I don't know my feelings in relation to the trauma. Drawing it would be hard. Its really confusing.