The Memory

[BrianX]

does anyone else recall the memory of the event that caused your PTSD clear as a bell, even 24 years later. I can't let go of the past. I don't understand why it had to happen. all of it makes me so angry and sad at the same time. it effects my ability to function in the here and now

 

[Changing4Best]

Mine was buried until I was in my mid 30s. It was uncovered in therapy by a trained regressionist. I can clearly recall everything in that one memory vividly, and some other memories that got uncovered just by the fact of the regression having touched upon that one. I was so freaked out by it that I left therapy for a number of years, but that did not stop my mind from coughing up several other similar instances. So, yes, vividly I can see quite a bit of what happened. I see colors, from the lighted room that I was in, but I know in my heart and soul that there were some instances that were done in total darkness too. I can just feel it, but since I am a very visually oriented person, I cannot recall those instances. I just know and feel that they are real, even though they are very foggy to my mind.

 

[BrianX]

Mine was buried until I was in my mid 30s. It was uncovered in therapy by a trained regressionist....

I never forgot mine. I was in the USMC when it happened asking for help when I was in was equal to being a failure or a wimp. I just had to choke on it, let it suffocate me. Looking back I don't know I made it through without it being worse than it already was. I drank a lot back then.

Thanks for reply

 

[Changing4Best]

Mine was in very early childhood, from age 2 and a half to age 6 or so. That may be why it got buried, also that I was threatened by my abuser with death (demonstrated upon one of my toys by choking it) if I were to ever tell anyone. Also, after every time he did it to me, he said the words, "This didn't happen." Somehow that became the truth for me until it was uncovered in therapy.

 

[Stickler]

:hug:. Certain things do hammer on my mind like that.

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